Loner,
Here is a poem that I would like you to read, it is called Desiderata. I often live my life close to the words. I think this will help you some.
http://www.freewebs.com/crys/
Just click on the link and it will take you there.
I really don't think there is such a thing as normal. Who would be to judge anyway. I think as long as you try the best that you can, you will be alright and feel good about yourself. And when it all comes down to it, that is really what matters. To know that we are trying our best and that we haven't done anything to hurt anybody or ourselves.
Take the poem to heart. Really read the words. They make a lot of sense.
Hugs, Karen