Teen Depression

Hi there and welcome to the depression forum.  I am sorry that I had to edit your post but we are not allowed to discuss self harm or suicide.  But here is a website that might help you.

http://www.dontcut.com

You should be able to find some help there.  Otherwise if there is something else that you would like to discuss feel free to do so. 

I highly recommend seeing a counselor for you.  They will not judge you at all.  They will help you with this.

Keep posting and know that we care.

Hugs, Karen

Heyy,

Thanks for all your replies and support, it's nice to know that there's someone out there that will put up with all my moaning, :).

Yeah, I'm Male, and just leaving year 11 (I'm from UK), meaning I'll be off school for around 3 months, meaning that by leaving it to see the school 'nurse' it'd be leaving it way to long. I don't know of any counsellors around this area, and even if there was any around, I wouldn't be able to force myself to go, I don't like talking to people face to face about my problems, hence that when i go outside of my room, I have to put on a fake smile so noone can notice how I'm hurting; I don't like worrying people when it's not that urgent.

My leisure time usually consists of sitting around all day doing nothing, regularly playing on my guitar, or talking to mates. Today's the first day for like, 2 weeks I've had any civilisation to be around.

I've had no real traumatic experiences recently that would've triggered anything like this. I've had a rocky few weeks, but nothing that's really taken it's toll.

Thanks,
J, x

 

Hey Karen,

I'm currently in a band with a few mates, so that keeps the creative juices flowing, so I'm finding it easier to express feelings than ever before.

I do have a query though. that website you said I should have a look at doesn't work. Would it be an old website that's shut down, as I have a high-specification computer, and doubt it would be my inability to connect.

Thanks,
J, x

Karen,

Thanks for re-posting the website, I will start signing up now, and try to talk to others on there in similar possitions as myself.



Siobhan,

* I believe there is a GP surgery I could get to, but knowing which ones are GP surgerys, and which ones are just like free-lance doctors/clinics, will have to mean deeper 'research'. Is there any quick and easy way I would be able to find out where all the GP surgerys are in my local area?
* I personally (even though maybe I should) have no idea about the current or previous Government; for I have no family or anything around me that really take much interest either.


* My creativity seems to be closing up, and for the past, maybe 5-7 days, I've written maybe, two verse; whereas normally I'd be writing that much everyday. I haven't been able to string any words or Chords together, and anything I play just sounds completely rubbish, so I scrap it, and start again.
I've also tried writing about the future, for example; maybe my future family etc, but it always comes back to the present, and how things aren't gonna be as good as anyone says it will, no matter how hard I try. This instantly gets thrown away. I've got writers block a few times in the past, but maybe for hours, a day maximum. I don't know what's happening, but there's an overwhelming sence that all I'm doing by writing about my feelings, are just making them more extreme, and sometimes it makes them harder to deal with, as appose to easier, like it used to doing.

Thanks again,
J, x

P.S.  'J, x' is just an easier way of signing a post, I'm not trying to hide my identity or anything. My name's James, but my friends call me Jimmy / JimmyD (we have a few James' in the school I go to).  Feel free to address me in any three ways, or something more creative if you fancy! (:

Post Edited (ctp-jimmyd) : 7/23/2010 2:01:55 AM (GMT-6)

Heyy,

Thanks for all your wishes Buttercup, means alot.

Siobhan; turns out there is a GP surgery right across the road from me, I probably should've known that already.
What would I say at the reception though? I'm quite conscious about how people think at me; that's why I've taken so long to really open up properly to anyone outside of like, my 2 closest friends.

Thankss,
J, x

Guys,

I'm in trouble. I can't do this. or put up with this; I'm deteriorating, but I'm too scared and worried to go and deal with it. I probably sound like an idiot, but I can't go over to the doctors. I just can't. I'm sitting here, with so many words and things going through my head, that I just can't understand any single last thing that Im thinking. I want to quit this, but Im just good on the hope that its a phase, a really long phase, (I've felt like this [increasingly worse] for probably a year, and it's stupid, and I dont know what to say, 'cos half the stuff Im feeling I cant talk about on this website. ad there's noone online, or around me that I can rage at. You guys will read this and think Im a nut, and need to go get help, and yeah, everyone knows that, everyone can see through this disguise, cos it's just evaporating infront of me, . I just wish that none of this ever happened, and it's stupid, cos there's nothing wrong with me. well. There is. but I don't care. Ive go so much on my mind, ive put my mental state right to the back, and Im adament that itll be easier in time, I know it wont, but I cant force myself to get help.

I'm sorrry. "/ ; I needed to get loads out of my system, and I dont expect a reply, or you to be able to help, cos i know youve got alot of your own stuff, and these are my problems that only I can sort out, and noone can do anything to help me, no matter how much anyone tried/wanted to help, but yeah, I need to talk to someone about them, cos I don't feel comfortable talking to people I know, incase they hange how they see me. I don't need that, not right now.

Great, here come the tears again,

James, "/ x 

Post Edited (ctp-jimmyd) : 7/25/2010 3:42:33 PM (GMT-6)