Hi there,
Welcome to healing well. I noticed that your two posts are almost identical. So I am going to delete one. Also had to edit, because we are not to discuss illegal drugs or suicide on this forum.
I don't know what advice to give you. If you have three of four friends that you trust. You are lucky. They are few and far between. So don't feel bad about that.
I am sorry that your parents get drunk. That isn't cool. Once in a while is okay, but on a daily basis, that is bad for you to see.
People who go where the drugs are don't respect you. If you are against them, stay that way. Don't do them just to go with the crowd. I respect your way of thinking. Good deal...
I hope that we cna help you some.
Take care, keep posting.
Hugs, Karen