Wanting to sleep all the time

it's going to be ok, trust me. your wife understands who you are and what you do. if you don't remember what happened ask the other people to see if maybe they remember something. i am proud of you for seeking AA counseling, it will change your life trust me.

here are ways you can fight the depression so that you can get back to work:
- deep breathing exercises and meditation
- stretching and aerobics exercise
- cleaning and grooming yourself
- socializing with others in a playful way
- vitamin c, b
- energy shots that last for 5 hours

let me know if you need anymore help

RealDeal,

Please do let us know how your fist meeting goes. You will find that you aren't alone. You are determined, you can do this. We are all behind you.

Hugs, Karen

Thanks for all the support folks, I have been reading your messages everyday since I have been here. 2 nights at the conference and no alchohol. It feels pretty good to be waking up with energy. I am still a bit worried about the last blackout but doing better again. The first meeting is Sunday and I am hoping I can make it out. My wife can come to this one to, prayers for me and chat soon.

 hey realdeal, hi my name is susan. I'm sorry to hear about your re-lapse, but that's part of recovery.Or at least that's what i've heard. I've been in and out of aa and alanon and counseling, you see i have a mom who has been sober for 17 or 18 years, but unfortunatley she's a dry drunk, no drinking, but still that rageful angry meanmiserable selfish and dont' let me forget abusive person. At this stage of the game i just want to scream out to her have a friggin drink already and shut the hell up, but i can't do that, she's 82 who wishes she was 52. andddddd i'm stuck living with her because i came down with a rare muscle disease that left me disabled and totally at her mercy. I'm very familiar to enabeling i saw my dad do it for years so of course i patterend after him and married my highschool sweetheart who turned out to be a binge weekend drinker. I guess i can relate to what your wife must be going thru and that truely sucks. It hurts to the core, we want to control,mother,and take care of our sick husbands. change  them give them ultimatums, hold sex over them, etc.etc. So realdeal,,,, it's totally up to you to be ready to stop the insanity. one drink is too many.I'm also a mother of two recovering sons there drug of choice.... herion.thank god today they are clean but i had 15 years of rehab, detox,jail, meetings, loss of jobs, fines, cars, and near deaths. The only way they've got any clean time is to network with recovering addicts, meetings, meetings, and more meetings. I feel bad for your family the addict or alcoholic doesn't realize how we hurt when we see our love ones killing themselves. Please let yesterday go, stay in the now, and don't worry about tomorrow. like my one son says if you have one foot in yesterday and one foot in tomorrow, you only wind up pissing all over yourself. I wish you all the luck in the world. If you did sleep with another woman and you don't remember, you may want to get tested before you take on your wife. That would be pretty crapty if you gave her an std cause if you can't remember if you had sex or not i'm sure you didn't wear protection. duhhhhhhhh. just sayin. well don't want to lecture,but that's just my motherly nature sorry if i stepped over the line. and i hope you stay clean and keep up the good work of meetings  alcohol is the worst drug to kick, it's legal and all over the place. it's hard but if your really ready you can do it. good luck, sus

hey realdeal123, didn't mean to freak you out, just life as i know it. I know it is scary not knowing what you've done the night or days before your binge. I've seen it all and it isn't pretty. Hope you've let go of yesterday, don't try to put the puzzle together, just be grateful your not in jail or crashed your car or something way worse. I hope your tests come back negative, that's a real head trip. When i was diagnosed in the hospital, they gave me an aids test, wow did i ever freak out waiting for the results, which thank god were negative. we all have a past for some of us it was bad choices, for those who had no regret aren't they lucky. I hope you can keep up the good work of sobriety, it's like they say , one day at a time. keep posting i know how it makes me feel when people answer back like when you think your all alone, really your not, there are alot of wonderful people who don't even know us, but will take time out of there day to drop us a line. take care and be kind to yourself. sue.

You folks are so caring and not judging, thanks for that. I feel like I have made new friends. I hope that i can start to help on this forum soon and help others that are in need and stop drinking. The test results come back next week but he did look at them there under a scope and said everything looks normal and I should not worry. The hotel also called me back and are going to run the security footage to help me track down what I was up to they have been great and actually said they get a few calls like mine. I am crossing my fingers I was stumbling back to my room myself. Hugs to all and I will let you know the next steps in my soap opera.

well all the tests came back negative. I am a little embarrassed as I even went to the hotel and got them to show me video footage of the evening. Just shows me with two other people a guy and a girl heading to the elevators. I am starting to feel a little better but still hurting I fell off the wagon. Came down with a bad cold on saturday which brought me down even more.

Hi Everyone, just thought I would drop into say hello and let you know things have been getting a lot better. I think the med increase has helped but also trying to stay away from liqour is even more of a help. I will drop in occasionally to give you updates and I hope soon, I can help others on this site with there recovery. Have a great day.