Teen Depression

Im 15 and i feel so lonely most of the time. I dont understand why i look back when my life was simpler and i was so happy just being regular and doing the same thing. now i wish i can go back to that. now i feel like i have no energy. no motivation. no impulse to keep moving on. i still hang out with some friends once in a while but then i feel empty again i laugh but then i feel sad immediately after. It all started this year as a freshman. I started high school and this really popular girl and hot started talking to me . so she sat with my group of friends and stuff in lunch and then we started going out. this was my first real relationship in where i started being involved sexually so it was more lustful. many people talked bad about us and some people hated me because they wanted her . she broke up with me and i was terribly sad not depressed yet for at least two months. Then i started hanging a lot with my friend thats a girl from middle school. she was my ex best friends girlfriend. she told me she liked me and i started developing feelings at that time we started kissing and i told him and he got angry at me even though he said he was over her and broke up a couple of months ago. he didnt even come to my bday and said i deserved to be alone. whatever life went on and i was happily with her. me and my friend made up. me and her were happy until people started going against me because everyone thought she was hot and all the guys hated me ! again ! so i just stuck to my friends and had kids try me and try to talk to her . we broke up because we lost feelings for each other and thats wher my bitterness started. my ex best friend again got mad at me and stopped talking to me and put all our close friends against me . that triggered my depression i havent since recovered then . i hung out with my other friends and got into drugs partying random hookups but it all made me feel lonelier . i missed them terribly. they all hate me and talk bad about me all the time and i can tell and it hurts me. a lot of kids hated me in that school because i just went out with those girls . and i messed up everything and got into a lot of problems so i just left the school now i go to another school . i still feel lonely and depressed but at least i dont have to deal with all that hatred. i cant stop feeling bad though. constantly i feel overwhelmed, angry, sad, i just want to isolate myself. i want to change and i dont know how. ive tried telling my parents but both tell me its just a phase is it really ? is it normal to be this sad and miserable ?

yeah youre right . thats exactly what ive been trying to do . i try 2 get my self busy its working for me :)

Hi Sania,

I am sorry that you are getting bullied in school. Do you ever talk to the school counselor about it? I would. Is school about over for the year for you? If so, maybe you wont see these people in the summer. I hope not. Do you have a counselor? I would figure that you would. If not, do get one. They really help.

Take care Sania,

Hugs, Karen

It will as your confidence will start to show. I am happy for you.

Hugs, Karen