Weaning off Lamictal

Kitt,

You have my prayers and support. I know it is hard weaning off meds. I am sorry that it didn't work for you. I know how frustrated you must be. I hope that you don't have treatment resistant depression. I really hope you don't. Because then it is down to vns and ect. Try to relax. Know that we are here for you. I really hope something works for you. I don't want to see you depressed. You are such a fine person and deserve to find what works for you.

Take care, I hope that you feel better soon. We all care about you Kitt.

Hugs, Karen

Hi Kitt,

I'm sorry that your not feeling well :( Withdrawls are hell! I remember withdrawing from zoloft and it was not fun.

I never reacted well to any antidepressants either, for me the side effects were worse than the depression iself! I was tring to find a new one but decided for now I'm just sticking to 5htp and exercise..have you ever tried 5htp? It helps me sleep and I feel better most of th time if I eat right and avoid alcohol.

I hope you feel better soon :)

The fish oil that I take has orange flavoring in it. It makes it a lot easier to take. I can't stand the burping up fish taste. Yuck...

If your doctor isnists you stick it out, give it a try. That way you kno w that you did. And if it doesn't work out, you can try something else. But the side effects generally last a couple of weeks. Hope that it works for you.

Hugs, Karen

Wow Kitt,

I didn't realize that you had to take six different things for depression. I hope and pray that you find a combination that works for you. How is your mil doing? How are you holding up?

I hope that this finds you having a good day.

Hugs, Karen

to telll you the truth i can't think of weaning off anything right now because the stress is overwhelming. i'm just trying to wrap my head around my illness and i'll have it forever so what the hell one day at a time. really hard for me to focus on the future. so i'm trying the live for today attitude to get me through. my whole world as i once new it has come to an end. yes i am feeling better but trying to motivate myself into a feeling of zen if hard, especially because i'm stuck living with my mom who i ran from all my life. she is a recovering drinker, in the program for over 15 years, but still acts the same mean rage jealous bitter selfish behaivor . she's now 82 and alot of changes are happening to her now.in retrospect i think she's had a chemical imbalance all her adult life and masked it with booze. but trying to get her to see a dr. for her head is a no no. very stubborn, combative, wanting to fight with anyone, the rage is scary. temper tantrums, i mean she is really scary. and that takes me over the edge. i internalize everything which makes my mouth go numb and the pain in my muscles is off the hook. she's been away for a week so i had a really great week, me and her dog.at the park, just chillin being able to come and go as i please without having to ask permission to use the car or tell her where i'm going. i'm so stuck now and i keep telling myself it's only going to be temporary. some days are good and alot of days are really bad.i'm really concerned about her mental health. she has migraines all the time. always mean and angry. she was physically abusive to me as a child and when she trys to hit me now, it brings back really bad memories. she throws boots at me. tells meshe wants to rip my face off. rip my hair out. she lies to her friends about me. i hear her on the phone just full blown lies. she comes home 2moro i'm really dreading it. my dr. tells me to take myself a time out from her when she behaves like that. so when i leave it only makes matters worse. there is no pleasing her. the more i do the more she hates me. it's a no win situation for now. i'm still on the mend with my condition and it will take some time to wean me off the meds that are stabelizing my cpk levels. it's a tuffy alright. never in my wildest dreams would i think i would be stuck like this. had to leave everything with my daughter who lives 3000 miles away. it just sucks..... ok. i'm off my pity pot now. on the lighter side my daughter and grandson are coming to visit me in july. can not wait. well thanx for the info on the lamictal. gotta go.

Your post brings back a lot of memories. I just want to say that I am glad that you had that week away from her. I am sorry for your situation. I am sure it will be better though. In the future. One day at a time is right. That is the only way to go.

Take care my friend.

Kitt gave you some very good advice.

Hugs, Karen

hi stkitt... thank you so much for your reply.I had a great week, because my mom went to visit my aunt who isn't doing very good. Smoked all her life now can not breathe without oxygen. so sad because she was my favorite aunt. to see and hear about her suffering really hurts. she's lucky though she and my uncle (my moms brother) have 4 daughters who are all near by and they truely have a lovely family. alot of support laughter and genuine love. unlike our household. guess that's why i spent so much time with them growing up. anyway my mom came home today. as soon as we got in the car on the way home i felt the tension building, building until finally she started with the snarky remarks never mind screaming and throwing her hands on the dashboard every time  a car would enter in our lane on the freeway. it was primetime gridlock 5:15pm. well we made it home without either one of us jumping out of the car. now while she was gone, i took care of love of her life. My little brother pieree, a 9 year old mix of who knows what, he's 100lbs. mom thought she was getting a dog she could put in her pocketbook and shop at home depot.totally ignoring her friends advise about the size of his paws. needless tosay he's huge. i call him a little buffalo.i love him and take care of him i'd say 85% of the time when she's home. the week before she left she would say things like 'YOUR GONNA NEGLET MY DOGGIE AND NOT BE HERE FOR HIM I JUST KNOW IT)we had such a great week together. park twice a day and for hours. not a 10 minute walk like she does. soooo yea i really negleted him.duh

when we got home well before we got home i stopped at burger king cause she had a headacke and needed a quick fix to her hunger pains and headache. so when we got home she starts with her bad manners and bad mood. she ate her food on the way home. i was on the phone and trying to eat mine, oh no here she comes in the garage interupting my conversation and demanding my attention to take the dog out. i hung up with my friend. walked in the house in my room and finished eating.she took the dog for a walk and when she came back i told her we needed to talk. i told her i need my boundries and respect. to not be smothered and demanding me to be by her side at her convinence 24/7. i'm 54 if i want to go see friends or go for a walk or whatever..... i don't need permission from her and to let me go and basicly leave me alone...... well after that she said that this is my home and i'll say and do whatever and however i want. we went back and forth for a while. one week away made it worse. i got a little piece of freedom i so needed and now it's twice as hard to deal with her demanding ways. nothing i do is good enough. i can't tell her what to do medically she is so trying to stay in control but loosing it because of her age.luckily i see a therapist. we did go to one together which we had to split the fee 150 an hour. after 4 visits we walked out and she said that was a waste of my f-----ing money and i could've taught her more than she could teach me. i'll stay on the meds. i need them. i'll be darned if i let her get her hooks on me. even if i have to sleep with one eye open. i don't have a lock on my door, which 2moro i will be buying one, i don't trust her. the combative behaivor, i'm worried because if she hits me i don't want to black out and lash out on her after years of her abusive behaivor.i don't know what a 5 year old little girl could've done to deserve beatings.... i'm not dwelling on the past it's just coming up more often because i'm around her now. before when i was 3000 miles away, i could deal with her,just hang up the phone. she's miserable, lonely, mean, jealous, and the only power she has over me is money. she buys things at really nice stores and sneaks bags up to her room. i don't give a crap. she's still going to be ugly whatever she puts on.there's no inner beauty, no inner peace, it's just too bad. and the lies, the lies, lies,i hate when she lies to her friends and our family. unbelievable....... i'll be going down to social security to see if can qualify for ssi i have to bring in more money in order to move. i'm afraid if i don't i'll never get better. the negativity is all consuming.thank god for this forum, modern medicene, a few good friends, and my children or else who knows????????ya know those scarey thoughts at night about what if?????i need all positive in me. i'm trying to heal thy self. with help from people like you that can relate.maybe 2moro she'll forget about 2day. usually that happens. well wish me luck, thanx again for listening.....have a great day. sue

Kitt,

Good luck on the weaning!  Never easy.  But hopefully you will find a course of action soon to help you feel better.  I recently added a good magnesium vitamin supplement to my regiment and boy I must have been terribly deficent!  No more tension in my back muscles, no more leg/muscle twitching at night/have remaind calm when I would have exploded, etc.  I have tried the calcium/mag combos but they never really agreed with me, so I tried straight magnesium and take it with yogart twice a day.  If you start getting really restless and agitated, you might give it a try.

Thinking of you and I hope all goes well.

Gem

with much healing compassion to you kitt. jamie