Need peace!

Have you thought about going to counseling and working on your trust issues? I think once you have learned to not be jealous and not suspect things, that you will be able to have a relationship again. I am not saying it will be with the same guy, but it is obvious that your insecurities drove the ex away. And that is something that you should work on for yourself. Until you do this, you aren't going to have a trusting relationship with anybody. That is the best advice that I know. Work on you...

Hugs, Karen

If you do go to counseling, you wont have to ruin anybodies life. You will get stronger. I have very few good friends. Good friends are hard to come by. And if you only have one in your life, you are doing good. Your life is going to change so much. But it doesn't happen all at once. As we grow, things just get different. We see things differently and our social situations become different. But you don't have to have anybody else in your life if you don't want to. That is all up to you. But do think about the counseling. They help guide you, they open our eyes to things. They help us figure out things and achieve goals that we want to achieve. I had NO CLUE as to what was what until I started seeing a counselor. I learned to believe in myself and make decisions. You learn to speak up for yourself if needed, you learn when not to talk. How to take control of your emotions. (your feelings of not trusting). You have to learn to put yourself and your happiness first. Not in a selfish way, but in a caring way. Then you get stronger and can persue life in the way that you want to. You will get there. One step at a time. One day at a time. I really think the counseling is going to help you.

Best wishes,

Hugs, Karen