I feel like an idiot because I've been really depressed and drinking a lot to deal with it. I'm fighting with my boyfriend and I feel like everyone around me is giving up on me. I need to find a job but I can't get out of bed today. Also, my pdoc never called me back and I don't have insurance so I can't afford another appointment. I was getting along with my mom until a few days ago but she's not speaking to me now. I just need a kind word or some advice. I'm so disappointed in myself and depressed.