Recently i have been avoiding to go to my religious group its just like the youth group in church. i've been worrying that if i went i'll feel that i'm going to be judged by people again and i just avoided it. So my friend asked me why i didn't go i was afraid to tell her the reason and i started to feel really bad.i was feeling guilty that she treats me so nice but yet i can't tell her the reason. i remember i didn't have appetite that day i felt really down like so helpless. For the past few days i still feel happy and joke in <NOBR><a id=FALINK_2_0_1 class=FAAdLink href="#">school</a></NOBR> but when i'm alone i feel like the world's gonna collapse soon and i feel really tired pyhsically like i never sleep before. it's been a month that i feel this way and a few days ago i started to feel numb like i don't have feelings for anything. Today during lesson, when i looked out of the window i suddenly feel the sky is dark and trapped in a cage feeling breathless and uncomfortable . well, i can't explain exactly how it feels but yeah it's awful. so what's wrong with me?
Sorry for the edit, but we aren't suppose to discuss suicide here.
Hugs, Karen
Post Edited (Gabriell3) : 8/22/2011 6:27:43 AM (GMT-6)