Need to Vent

Hi Everyone,

I posted earlier on the anxiety page with not much response. I'm down in the dumps today and full of anxiety. My husband hauls heavy equipment for a major pipeline company and this morning he left after being home with me and our daughter for 4 weeks. I don't know how long he will be gone this time, sometimes it is 5-11 weeks at a time.

 I am usually fine during the day but as night comes on so does the anxiety. In a very big way. It scares me to be alone with my daughter at night. I usually go to his mom and dads house and we stay there over night when he is on the road. I hate doing this though because it makes me feel weak and my daughter who is 10 would rather be at home. (not fair to her) I suffer from ptsd after the loss of both parents. I also suffer from health phobias and fear that something will happen to me.

 I have yet to talk to a counselor, but have my first appointment on the 23rd. My family doctor has me on Zoloft 50mg and Xanax .25 as needed. I take the Zoloft in the morning and have been taking the Xanax every six hours. I have been on them now for just over 6 weeks. They seem to be working okay, except for times like these.

I am going to try and stay home tonight as I know that this is a hurdle that I MUST jump and overcome. I am not sure how, and thought that maybe some of my friends here would have some advice?!

I know that it sounds petty to some of you , but truth be known, I don't know how to deal with this!!

Please Help!!!

Thanks and Blessings, Michelle

Hi Michelle,

Can you distract yourself such as watching tv or reading a book in the evenings? I know how hard it must be. My girlfriend's husband works in another state, and I know it is hard for her. Hopefully he will be coming home in the spring. But she gets lonely and worries too. But the worrying doesn't help anything, it just makes you more anxious. Do you do deep breathing when you have anxiety? I find it helps.

Keep posting. We will try to keep you busy until your appointment comes up.

I hope that this helps some. I am sorry that you are going through this. Do take care and hang in there until your appointment. I am sure that the counselor will help you with some ideas.

Hugs, Karen

Thanks you guys, My issues are at night after I've gone to bed. I wake with p/a and have wound up in ER several times!!! Just sucks! Thanks for believeing in me Maggie

Blessings Michelle

Go curl up with yr daughter, nothing soothes me like hearinf their slow deep breathing and smelling their inniocent child smell-she won't mind,,,deep breathes..c'mon girl you can do it...one night

You're in my prayers
maggie

Hi Michelle,

I don't know how much help I'll be, but just know I'm here for you as you were to me. Maybe try switching your sleeping habits a bit. like if you sleep in the dark try putting on a night light or do something calming before bed like taking a bath, singing loudly or drinking warm milk etc.

Keep in touch, we're here for you

-charles

I LOVE YOU ALL,

Just wanted to say that!!!! It is 11:22 mountain time in the u.s. and I just got out of the tubby I love my tub!!! I'm having a hot cup of tea and getting ready to hit the hay to get some sleep... WITHOUT P/A and ANXIETY !!!! I will let you know how it went in the morning...ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ wish me luck!

Thanks and Blessings, Michelle

Hi Michelle,

Have a good sleep and have sweet dreams. keep us notified!

~charles

Good Morning !!

Thought I would let you know how my night went. You will all be proud of me... I went over to my inlaws after I got home last night and visited for about an hour. My daughter fell asleep on their couch, usually I would just give in to my fears and stay there but instead, I woke her up and said " lets go home" I forced myself to leave, go home and face my fears! I read until almost midnight closed my eyes and went to sleep.

I didn't sleep well, tossed and turned all night but oh well. I didn't let my fears and anxiety get the best of me ! We will see how tonight goes. I'm NOT giving in !!!!! Thanks to all of you and I will keep you posted !!!

Blessings, Michelle 

Post Edited (justwant2bemeagain) : 1/13/2012 9:59:17 AM (GMT-7)

As you get stronger with this, each time is going to be easier too. I am proud of you too. That is a huge hurdle. Keep up the fantastic work!!!

Hugs, Karen

Hey Michelle

How is it going tonight?

maggie

Hi Maggie,

My inlaws just left my house to go home. I invited them to come to me tonight instead of me going to their house. It was someone to talk to and it put my mind at ease. Just trying different routines to see if that helps me ! I feel really pretty good tonight. I am tired because I didn't get much sleep last night, but I KNOW that tonight WILL be better. My daughter has two of her girlfriends here for a sleep over, that also is a big step for me. In the past I have not been able to handle the stress of watching other peoples children overnight, but so far so good and my daughter is having a blast! I'll keep you posted, thanks for your care and understanding

Blessings, Michelle

keep strong. with healing compassion, jamie