Sick of everything!

Relationships where one or both people aren't understood, or treated badly, shallow friends, people who just use others.
Everywhere I go I feel like I don't fit in...and I truly don't. I know sometimes this can be a good thing as I've never wanted to be like everyone else, but sometimes I just want to have people I can go to, who I fully know and understand and we can comfort each other. I haven't had a friend like that in person for a long time.

I hung out with an old friend (we dated a long time ago) who had just moved back to town and it was fun and seemed like we naturally hit it off for a while, which is rare for me. At the end I took him back to his place and he started making me uncomfortable if you know what I mean. And the dumbest line ever. We were talking about how he lives his life in the moment and then said "what would you do if you knew you were going to die tomorrow?" I said I'd do alot of things differently and probably go crazy and be reckless haha. But then he says "well you know what I'd do..then tries to kiss me and get me to do things with him. Eh. Really? We're just seeing each other for the first time in forever, and now this. And when I told him to stop he said "well maybe you should leave." I then said "wow, you're kicking me out now?!" and he apologized and said no you can stay. Seemed rude though. But on the other hand I have known him forever and to be a decent guy aside from this moments. The girls I have had as friends have not been much better. I know not all guys are like this and not all girls are catty and mean, but I'm having a hell of a time finding people who I can stand to be around or I'm compatible with.

I agree with IG, you need to change the people you are around. Maybe start going to church and meet people there. Not saying all people there are nice, but I would feel that the majority of them would be. Find people in places you like to go. Such as coffee shops, book stores, not bars and places like that.

It isn't hard to do, it just takes a little time. Kind of like starting over. You will make good friends. I think that this guy was just attracted to you. And I think you are fortunate he didn't push any farther and left. That was very respectful on his part. But next time you might not be so lucky. So be careful in choosing who you take home with you.

I hope that this helps some. It is disenheartening when we are disappointed by people, but it happens.

Take care my friend.

Hugs, Karen

Things will get better elf. Don't give up. You need to surround yourself with healthy people. I know down people understand, but sometimes that brings you farther down. Keep trying. You are a good person and loved here.

Keep posting.

Hugs, Karen

Going through the exact same thing over there...for like year and half. Dont know how bad it is on your side, but I have totally no 'real' friends, yeah I do speak with people at school but nothing else. Its hard to find good friends if you're shy or depressed like hell in my case.I know that. I found one good friend on the internet, I meet him every 2 weeks. I'd try to meet people online if I was you.