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Posted 1/25/2012 5:31 AM (GMT 0)
Hi All,


Well... im back AGAIN! Not for a good reason either. Im over it all. I just feel pain. Nothing else. Just pain. I swear im not alive. Well, im here but im not. I am falling. Down and down and down. School starts in 1 week. Am on ADHD pills from tomorrow (Rubifen 5mg). Having to go to a SA councillor starting next week. If that doesn't lift my mood, im going to have to go on anti depressants. Just come back from holiday with friend. HATED it! Had about 5 hours sleep in the last 5 week. Got panda eyes. Feeling like crap. Dont care about anything. Dont want to see anyone. Just wanna run. And die. I dont even wanna see my nephew anymore. I dont care about anyone. Im too sad to cry. I dont know what else to say.



Bye.

Jess :(

Post Edited By Moderator (Jim1969) : 1/24/2012 11:30:56 PM (GMT-7)

Posted 1/25/2012 6:09 AM (GMT 0)
Oh Jess...I am so sorry you are feeling so down. Going back on antiepressants does not have to be a life sentence. You make them sound so awful.... I have been on antidepressants for 5 yrs. and I have to say I would much rather wake up feeling like being apart of life then wake up wanting to end it. Try to look at it like a diabetic need insulin. Try not to cheat yourself out of lfe. I will keep you in my prayers and I am sending you positive thoughts....Hang in there...

Bless you, Amy
Posted 1/25/2012 9:22 AM (GMT 0)
i am that person. insulin dependant diabetic!!!! sux but i need it. and all my psych meds as well!!
hang in there netball, things will improve, slow and steady wins the race my friend, we may be down but certainly not out, for we have our hw friends that keep us inspired and keeps us getting through. keep strong and take things one step at a time, keep journalling your feelings and keep doing things that keep you strong. for me, walking, clears the head and music. music keeps me feeeling good and motivated. what are yours?? know that we care my friend. take care of you.
with healing compassion to you, jamie
Posted 1/25/2012 3:00 PM (GMT 0)
Jess,

It always seems darkest before the dawn. Things are going to get better, you are on the right track. Trying to do all the right things. All this will help you. Let people in. Let people help you. Once you start to feel better, you will know what we are all talking about.

Do hang in there Jess. We are all in your corner.

Hugs, Karen
Posted 1/25/2012 7:05 PM (GMT 0)
Please feel better soon! I hope that u recover from this! Ur very important. Every single person is important if not to the people then definitely to the Creator! That is why each one of us is created. We are living because we have to accomplish the necessary tasks. Ur life and every minute that u spend is valuable. I pray that things work well for u. Dont feel that u are alone in this. We are here for u! <3

Please keep writing how u feel! Lots of love!
Posted 1/25/2012 7:13 PM (GMT 0)
Things aren't and haven't got better. Starting meds for ADHD today. Feel no better. Just numb. Normally netball helps me to be happier and being around my mates, but no. Not this time. @!#$%&*@#*%!$
Posted 1/25/2012 10:15 PM (GMT 0)
Netball......I will keep you in my prayers...

Bless you, Amy
Posted 1/25/2012 10:52 PM (GMT 0)
Hi Jess,

The meds are going to take awhile. It takes antidepressants six to eight weeks to reach their full potential. So don't give up on that. And you may start feeling better sooner. Hang in there hon. We are here for you.

Hugs, Karen
Posted 1/25/2012 11:10 PM (GMT 0)
Hope you feel better, though I have to say that a vacation is cool, especially with your friend :)
Posted 1/27/2012 7:46 AM (GMT 0)
AAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Posted 1/27/2012 3:20 PM (GMT 0)
Netball, yes it can suck to have to be on medicines, but give them a try and
some chance of working and helping you....Some medicines take a few weeks
til you feel them working, yesterday I had to restart methotrexate again as I'm
in a very bad Rheumatoid Arthritis flair, it wasn't easy to restart this medicine
but it's something I needed to do....I really really hope your feeling a lot
better soon and that you won't need this medicine for very long...Thinking
of you hun...with many Prayers, well wishes and hopes... as you got so many
good things to look forward too....keep us posted okay even if it's just to vent...
Posted 1/27/2012 4:35 PM (GMT 0)
netball, my compassion is with you. I resisted medication for awhile and finally gave in. It has really helped me and I know that if I get to where I don't want to take it anymore, I can work my way off of it. You can do the same.

I hope you start to feel better soon. Do you have anything that will help you sleep for awhile?
Posted 1/29/2012 7:15 PM (GMT 0)
i have sleep stuff that you spray in ur mouth. Doesn't work. Im still not feeling ANY better! I swear im getting worse!!!! F*@#!!!
Posted 1/29/2012 7:29 PM (GMT 0)
Is there anything you'd like to talk about?
Posted 1/29/2012 8:46 PM (GMT 0)
Im so sorry that you feel this way. Sending lots of prayers your way. Hope that you feel better soon! Keep taking it out here. You will feel better! Always there! take care.
Posted 1/29/2012 8:48 PM (GMT 0)
Be patient with the meds Jess. They do take awhile to start working. But if you are feeling considerably worse, maybe they aren't the right meds for you. Let whoever prescribes them for you know that you are feeling worse. There may even be something that they can add to help you feel better faster.

I know it is hard. And I know how bad you want to feel better. We have all been there, some of us still are. You aren't alone in this.

Hugs, Karen
Posted 1/29/2012 11:02 PM (GMT 0)
I dont know what to say to be honest. I am not yet on meds BUT there is a possibility that i will be put on them if the therapy, which is starting on thursday doesn't help.

Im dying inside.
I really am.

:(
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