My Psychiatrist Died

I do not know where to turn so, I decided to try posting to see if anyone out there has ever gone through this or if anyone can give me any words of wisdom. Anyways, I saw my psychiatrist every month for 12 years. He knew everything about me. I told him every detail about myself and what I was going through. He was there through the drugs, the men, school, family issues, daily issues and much more. He was the one I called at 3am to talk me off the ledge. He was the one who I couldnt wait to tell about the positive moments too! No one knows me like he did. He saved my life! I feel alone, scared and lost. I am crying and/or angry all the time. And I take it out on my loved ones. That is the worst part. Now, I have no one to trust or run to. Time to take the training wheels off, huh?

Hi Cass,
Thank you so much for the reply. I truly appreciate the kind words. It made me feel so good that someone out there can relate to what I am going through. I try to tell my boyfriend how I am feeling but, he could never know the pain because he does not see a doctor. I try to explain but, it is hard to convey the emptiness inside me. I believe that he thinks that I am overreacting. My doctor was not only my doctor, I considered him my friend too. Oh well, I will keep on plugging along. Time heals, right?

Sha

That is an extremely tragic and upsetting thing to hear and my heart goes out to you, it really does. But try to think of it this way as hard as it is, you can find comfort in a new therapist in exactly the same way you built up the relationship with your previous one. Its hard to look at it like that because you'll think no-one will ever know me as well as he did, but if you try to take down these barriers and allow somebody with fresh ideas and techniques into your life, you can overcome this hurdle and get through future obstacles. Hope you find comfort at this time :)

I just found and joined this forum because I need help. I had gotten to the point after 14 years of seeing my psychiatrist once a month. I called as I was ill and missed my last appointment last month. I started saying ' I need a appointment as soon as possible' when the receptionist said ' that's not possible she is dead.' This was Wednesday afternoon. I have severe chonic panic disorder and depression. I am now back in a place I haven't been in in quite a while. I cannot focus, can't get out of bed. Her records are unavailable until a court order. I need refills on my medications and I am lost. The office won't refer any one. I just don't know if I have the strength to start over with someom new. I don't even know how to find someone. Any advice would be welcome. How does one find a good psychiatrist. I am babbling. .I apologize.

Shasha,

Welcome to our community. Thankfully you have landed in a soft and comforting place I hope.

You have received good suggestions so far.

I would like to add that talking to your family doc and also asking if perhaps, aditvan or something like it to help you through. If you are already not taking it.

Our rescource thread, top of this forum. Has pages of helpful likes, books and advice

Please keep reach out numbers and crisis numbers available for the worse times.

For the real dark times in my life when I say 'what is the point?" I hold ice cubes, to bring down my emotional level. Works for me and some, not for everyone, like all other skills.

Just a thought.

try to remember all he taught you, all the way you have come.
I believe he would not want you to fail because of this.

Grieving is a natural process with death of a close person in our lives. It is not a fair situation. We get tell the Pysch docs. and therapist deepest feelings and secrets to get well. We hardly know anything about them.

We feel they are our friends, however they are not.

Nasty spot. I would stay that perhaps you will want the training wheels off now, that does not mean perhaps a therapist and a doc for meds might work better.

You know, I consider myself blessed, like you I have had the same therapist and Doc for the last and first 5 yrs. Horror stories I hear about others make me kring. So yea, call the Ins and ask your doc for a name.

My Neuro, [I have nerve damage in my head] died last year. No notice. Office so shocked couldn't reccomend anyone. I still miss him. I know just how good he was when I over he other neuros at the big headache center I am at now, comment about him. Not to nicely either, he stood his ground ethically went out on his own.

I wish the strength and peace to stay calm.
Trina