post holiday blues

How do you cope with the post holiday blues? We had a wonderful time away-but now have to come to terms with reality. Have been very down for last few days and don't really know why. The financial probs are almost sorted and I'm back to work full time. Have to say am finding that exhausting but know it will get better.

Some positives - had first councelling session last week. Many tears but helpful I think.Will be attending weekly for next few months - will keep you informed. One thing that cme out has made me think - I have(had?) a very effective shell-the person who could deal with everything in a calm and sensible way. Practical to the end - just deal with whatever it is and move on. You know - superwoman - marriage, family, high pressure job, always 'doing'. That is not how I feel - I am that inadequate, fraudulent, lonely and scared individual. Anyway concellor described it as the 'proffessional, logical shell with the trapped and terrifies little girl inside'. Somehow that just seemed to sum it up!

Feel better for sharing - will be in touch next week to get back into swing again.

Luv and hugs

Stumpytroll

Been wondering where you have been. Nice to see you again. Listen, people with depression go through every day life just like everyone else. "The perfect person"??? No such animal. There is no one in this world that has a wonderfull life, great job, professional, great kids and a great marriage. That's near to impossible. As far as I know, each family has it's own "dark clouds" to cope with. If people have perfect lives, why the heck are we here on this site and other sites and support groups. What you are feeling is felt by a lot of people who suffer depression. We don't feel worthy enough or good enough or good wife and mother enough. We critisize ourselves and call ourselves names. I do it all the time. If I drop something, I say out loud now, "Sue, you're such a dumb a**and can't even do that right". Whatever I was doing. I have low self esteem. Most people who are depressed have a lot of the same symptoms. I think I am trying to deal with them and then try to turn my life around where I feel I should be. None of us asked to be put here on this earth, and for whatever it's worth, we (most) have had trauma in early years. Pray about it and please don't be so hard on yourself. We all care for you and the Lord loves you. That;a why he died for us.

Hugs

"Lefty"