Afraid

Hi Everyone,

I have never done this before. I was diagnosed with depression in 2005 and have been managing it fairly well until recently. I have been able to function well and have kept it a secret from everyone except the therapist that I used to have. These past couple of months I have been thinking about a lot of things that trigger me and today I feel like I was going to have a breakdown because I became so overwhelmed thinking about how I have been lonely for most of my life. I've never depended on anyone emotionally. I'm too afraid to speak to anyone close to me about it. Today it just all came flooding and it really scared me. I won't hurt myself, but I can't stop thinking about things from my past and how ashamed I am of them. I guess I'm just writing because this is the easiest way for me to share. I know I'll feel better tomorrow, I hope. But I'm very afraid now.

I once got told to acknowledge how you are feeling. To say ' yep ok I'm feeling like this now, thanks body for letting me know... But this bad feeling will go away soon, just as it always does. I'll wait it out' and in the meantime while ur waiting for the bad feeling to go... Surround yourself with things you like or do something which makes you happy. Because it will pass like it always does!

Our past is just that, the past. You can look at it with regret or not. Try not to regret. You are alone a lot, but are you necessarily lonely? We always have ourselves. I spend a lot of time alone, but I like it. I think you do too.

Maybe it iss time for another therapist??? I see one and it really helps. It does us good to talk things out. I hope you continue to post. Take care and have a great day...

Hugs, Karen

That is fantastic!!! I hope you get a therapist that you like. If you don't, get another. It really makes a difference if we have good therapist or not.

We are here for you everyday. Remember that...

I hope that this is a good day for you...

Hugs, Karen....