i just feel down

My mom already has alot on her plate,she's moving to Bahrain for her new job for six months,we'll be here with my dad,& my dad isn't really good at looking after us,so she's worried,then after six months she'll relocate to damam for 3 years,I'll fly there by the end of this year hopefully & live with her,so I don't want to bother her any further.I don't like telling people how I feel,I'm not open at all,I feel inferior if I talk about my feelings,I blast out Pantera,or just not give much thought into it.I mean people come to me for their problems,to talk or cry on my shoulder,but vice versa,no.but how do I hide from my parents when I go to therapy sessions,I won't tell my sisters either,they know nothing about this,& they never will,nor my family or friends,or anyone!I can't allow that!because if they do,I may stop therapy just to make them see nothing's wrong,I hope they give me meds instead,so I won't need to go to sessions,because they'll notice.

No I'm not,I'll make the appointment after eid,since they close for vacation.

If I go to sessions alot,my dad will notice,& because I live in Saudi Arabia,& I'm a girl,I can't drive,& my family is basically four girls,so we share a driver,& if one of my sisters took the driver & I had to go see the therapist,even saying that word makes me grimace a bit,so the only person who can drive me is my dad,& my dad won't drive anyone unless it's important,so I'll have to tell him,& I don't want that!I don't want my parents to know there's something wrong with me,my ego won't allow it.& I'm known to be a hermit,I rarely go out,I usually isolate myself in my room.so if all of a sudden I began going out my dad will suspect something,also if I go with one of my sisters if we both have to go,& get dropped off at the hospital more than once,they'll know something's up,so how can I be sneaky about it?

I don't like the school counselors,they don't make me comfortable,& they may call my parents,also they'll probably tell other teachers,I don't want that,I'll try to see what I can do.I'll check the link out.