i'm screwed up!!!

    continuing to lived with a life like mine does not make sense,it hurts and it really sucks!!!

  at times i look at the sky and wish that God is out there but most of the time all i can see is the pain in my miserable life,i wish that i could say that God is out there but i just don't know.... 

 Karlo,

If you believe, then you will know that God is there. I know he is because he sure has helped me out of some rough times. I am nothing whitout Him. I can't rise in the AM without Him and I thank Him for another day. I will not preach, but all you have to do is ask and He will help you. It takes time. God is always putting challenges on me. He needs to see how much I can handle. I tell Him I have wide shoulders. When I have had enough, I tell HIm I can't do it anymore. He seems to just lighten the load real fast. Everyone should have a "higher power" no matter what denomination, but mine is our Lord and Savior. He died for us to have eternal life. God gave his sone for us to have eternal life. That's what He asked him while he hung on the cross.

 

I believe that I wouldn't be here without him. I would probably be wondering the streets without a thing. One day a long time ago I was the lowest I ever felt. I got on my knees and prayed but was yelling that I couldn't take anymore. I asked if it was His will that I stay here, to please give me a sign. I told Him I was ready to go home to be with Him and my family who have passed. I cried for what seamed over an hour. When I was done, my eyes were stinging and all puffed out, I had the worse headache and I was exhausted but I felt better. I gave it all to Him and I told Him when I did, I wasn't taking it back. I told Him it was in his hands. He took it and never gave it back. It was family issues and it was taking a toll on me. So, I surrendered to HIm. You wouled be surprised at what He can do, but we all have to be patient. The bible says, "Pray without ceasing" and "you have not cause you ask not" also it not my will it's THY will. I am going to pray for you today and every day. God will hear your prayers if you believe. God bless!@

"Lefty" 

Hi Karlo
Athough I believe there is a God my faith is not as the others here. I appreciate the deeply held views of others and wish sometimes I could have the same, but don't think it will happen. You have terrible pain in your life right now and there is no magic wand that will take that away. Those with a strong relationship with God find the strenght to carry on - the rest of us have to find that strength in a different way. I truly believe that we all have the power in us - whether we call it God, mediataion, or whatever.
Try to follow the sound advice re doctors and therapy - and to quote from that old favourite 'Desirdrata'
You are a child of the universe
No less than the trees and the stars
You have a right to be here

You will be in my thoughts, hope things seem a little more hopeful - those on this site, whatever their beliefs do understand coz they've been there. Their kindness and sense has helped me enormously over the past few weeks, let them hold you too.


Luv and hugs

Stumpytroll

hi karlo, i have felt like you feel that living my life does not make sense at all, but what you can do is change it for the better, if you take a good look at your life you will propably find a lot of things you do or say you can change them and stuff like that, it may take time to feel an effect but you can do it. good luck to you.

and god never burdens you with something you can't handle, it is always a test for you to see how you deal with it. life isn't supposed to be always fun or perfect , life is a trial to see how strong you are and how you can handle things, you have to train yourself to be patient, patience is very important.