Health problems led to major depression...

It's not anxiety because I wake up feeling sick a lot of the time and it's not brought on my stressful situations at all. I've tried anxiety medications and they don't help the physical symptoms at all. I've had anxiety affect me physically before... two years ago I was more stressed than I've ever been and I did have some stomach problems but they didn't keep me from my life like these do. I know how my body reacts to anxiety and this isn't it. I finally got my doctor to agree that it's not anxiety, it's something physically wrong with me.

I always eat before taking vitamins and I drink probably 100+ ounces of water every day.

Post Edited (lindsay0891) : 9/21/2012 9:53:48 AM (GMT-6)

There are still options. Even if you can't reach your goal of Thanksgiving, doens't mean that things aren't going to get better for you in time. Try to go with the flow of life. It really helps in the way that we feel. Eat healthy and try to walk. All these things will help you. The walking really helps. Have you gone to mindfulness.org like Trina suggested? It changes your whole outlook on life. I think that would help you.

Keep posting and know that we care.

Hugs, Karen

Thanks. I'm gonna try that but they said I can't call until the week after next.
I'm still really hoping that I'm sick from the mold at my apartment and I'll get better gradually.

If you keep looking things up, you are going to have health anxiety. Let it rest and deal with the symptoms. You will find out what is going on soon. But don't dx via internet... Just looking out for you...

Hugs...

Thanks. It's hard to tell if it is an anxiety attack because I'm usually not really feeling anxious when it starts.
It just feels like, if I don't diagnose myself, who will? The doctors have given up until November.

Last night I was getting really bad stomach pains and woke up nauseous this morning. I just hate this so much.

Post Edited (lindsay0891) : 9/23/2012 10:32:00 AM (GMT-6)

You are letting anxiety take over. Often we don't recognize it for what it is. Try to hang in there until your appointment comes up and don't look anything else up on the internet. You may not realize it but we get caught up in all kinds of symptoms when we look up health issues on the internet. It is never a good thing to do. We make mountains out of molehills.

You may be experiencing some type of allergies from the changing weather. Relax, maybe lay down and listen to some music. Try not to think about your illness. I know that it is esier said than done. But you can do it...

I want to repeat this because it is so important... Many people get severe anxiety because of looking symptoms up on the internet. If you really think about it, you could have symptoms of a lot of things, and thinking about them magnifies it all. So steer clear from diagnosing yourself with internet information.

Relax, breathe and seriously, mindfulness.org. It is as simple as that. Please check it out.

Hugs, Karen

It is obvious that you have anxiety by the way you are worried about your health. This is normal. I really think that counseling would help you sort all this out and help you find out what is wrong. With that being said. I wish you the best with your health. It is going to take time to find out what is wrong. But you will.

Many times it has been mentioned about mindfulness, do you practice it? It gets you in tuned with your body. There is a mind and body connection that not all of us have. I suggest that you look it up and practice it. You would be more in tuned with what your body is saying. It really does help.

I hope that you find some answers. You have an appointment coming up. It wont be long now.

Hugs, Karen

I understand your problem! I have crohns disease but went about 20 years before I was formally diagnosed. My 20s were brutal..surgery after surgery..30s strangely vey healthy and my 40s after living in developing countries..back down the tubes! My crohns has never presented classically. My blood tests are always normal..normal normal. Right now I have enlarged lymph nodes in my groin and loss of appetite,the usual symptoms I get before I obstruct like hearing my food transit throug my bowel..like I can trace it!
I'm trying to say that physical illnesses don't always follow classic textbook symptoms. And sometimes events we may think have attributed to our illness is just a coincidence. Some aren't but I usually dont know until hindsight. I can't begin to predict it while I'm going through it.
I also have some depression but it's pretty well maintained on cymbalta. Mine definitely got worse with my illness flaring in 2000..I lost everything I thought made me who I was. I then found out I am not my job, I am not my apartment or the pretty thugs in them, I am not my car or my status among friends and even family. All of these aspects add flavor to my life no doubt. But I am more than the sum of things or people in my life!
It's easy enough to say this on a not so horrible day. When I'm sick unable to leave the house because I cat leave a bathroom for longer than ten minutes, it's just darn depressing!
Maybe if you could find activities in your home or room to do?i used to choose beautiful pictures, cut them out and place them in my journals that I write in. It lifted me up a bit. Not quite the same as,say, hiking in the himalayan mountains but we do what we can!

Lindsay,

Mindful.org has many articles some short some long that will walk you through exercises to calm your self.

http://www.mindful.org/mindfulness-practice/meditation-in-action/why-we-find-it-hard-to-meditate

PLEASE FOR YOUR PEACE OF MIND, READ THIS ARTICLE.

Thank you.
Trina

Feeling very sick today. If I feel up to it I'm going to the internal medicine doctor tomorrow. Wish me luck!

Thanks. :) The good thing is it's not an appointment, they do walk-ins if you're already a patient (and all you have to do is have an appointment scheduled to be considered a patient). Another good thing is I'm feeling a lot better tonight than I was earlier. I'm pretty optimistic since internal medicine specialists are supposed to be the best at solving puzzling diagnostic issues.

I want to second Katya about the journal. It is good to keep track of your symptoms, you can often find a pattern. Just be careful of too much internet info. I am so happy you are going to see the internest. I hope you get some answers.

Hugs, Karen