Tough few days

 

  Brian,

         I share your pain, I've been off work for almost a year due to work place injury.  up till now I've managed to somewhat stay afloat but am quickly drowning in debt. 

You mentioned Christmas, my GF lives about 5 hours away(by car) so I went up on the 23, everything seemed ok, we had some interesting conversations, but no fights.  anyway Christmas eve and Christmas day were great!

Christmas evening she told me she wanted to break up and it was over.  I was devestated, infact I'm still trying to work that out, on top of being broke and not working.  there isn't an Emoticons  on the screen that can describe how I feel. 

 I cried my eyes out. (no shame in crying) the harder i tried not too the harder i cried.  If i could  admit myself to a mental hospital i would..I live in a small town & recently moved here, don't know anyone and find making new friends difficult here.

  the more I sit alone in my apartment the worse i feel. the past 3 days have been horrible and now the landlord is after me for rent that i can't afford...

 

Hi Brian, I can totally relate to the loneliness & being broke. It's an awful feeling and the holidays certainly don't help. They're almost over...I can't wait! Continue taking your meds & the one day at a time motto helps too.

Jim, I'm so sorry to hear what you're going through. In late October my boyfriend informed me he was relocating almost all the way across the country. It broke my heart. So I said I'd go with him, however he's not ready to live with someone. Losing someone at any time is tough, but around the holidays is so much worse. Trust me I know it could be worse, but he was good to me & good for me. I've been trying to keep my mind occupied. The more I think, the more I hurt & fall further into the depressive state. I know it's not easy. I was in a terrible place last night & that's how I found this site. It's been so helpful already. Hang in there & remember one day at a time.