I feel like a major *****!

Ok so my finals are in a week,I'm in the 11th grade,so ofc this week I'm preparing myself,I'm gonna study math,physics,biology & chemistry,I started with math,it's algebra ll this year,ofcourse being in the scientific branch,math is outta 600,physics,bio & chem are outta 400,Arabic is outta 200 & religion is outta 100,which is the lowest & the least affecting subject,but Math is the tie breaker,you either win or lose,you suck at math,your grades take a major drop.so back to the story,anyway,I've been preparing it ever since last week!& I haven't slept because of it,but I just can't seem to understand!I had my tutor explain,I can't understand,I asked my classmates,I can't understand,so today was really my breaking point,everytime I come home from a math test,I feel like crying because my mind goes blank in the test & it goes ugly from there,but I hold it in & tell myself to suck it up & be a man!so I noticed that I couldn't comprehend alotta lessons,so I panicked because if I can't understand,I'm really screwed,this year & next year are counted for college admission.I haven't finished math yet & I still have three long subjects left,so I broke down in tears of frustration,anger,worry & panic.my mom & aunt witness this,they tell me that I'm blowing things outta proportion yada..yada,then my mom suggests that i ask the teacher,but I tried that & she told me she'll only explain certain details,not lessons.so then my younger sister walks in & she asks what's wrong?I cried before over the same subject & she called me a *****,so when she asked this time,I told her it was none of her business,then she says"again the same subject?stop being such a drama queen & get over it,it's just 11th grade"I told her to shut up,& that I'm in no mood for her.I mean how pathetic can I be?my own younger sister just called me a *****!I feel like crap,& I just wanna crawl in a hole & never come out.everyone witnessed how weak & pathetic I am,I'm really ashamed of myself.

Phil,

First, you have NOTHING to be ashamed of! Crying is a very healthy thing to do. Holding it in is when problem will arise.

Second, you are not quite a man yet, so you don't have suck it and be a man, you are student struggling to do more than expected of you.

If you try too hard you will do worse from your anxiety then you would from what knowledge you have aquired. Trust that you know what you know and take it from there. The more relaxed you are the more focus your be, the easier to understand the concepts.

RELAX!!! You need to breathe. Slow breathe a slow breath in, hold it, let it out through your partially open lips slowly. Do this at least 3 times. Whenever you feel overwhelmed. It is called smelling the roses. It will bring you back to the moment and clear your head.

As for the math? Go on to another subject, feel accomplished. take a break. then try a little math. It is not the end of the world. Math is not your master!! You can always, take a summer course to make up a grade. Breathe! You are in charge. Breathe.

I wish you strength and Peace
Trina

Hi Phil,

I wish you the best in your math exam. Try to relax. That is the best thing that you can do. Do you have a counselor? Often when you talk with them, they can come up with something to help you. For instance, here they can give you a medication to keep you from overthinking so that you can see things more clearly. I was never fortunate to have that option, and I had the same problem with you in all classes. When it came to test time, I would draw a blank. I know now it was anxiety.

Take a chance at the breathing. You don't realize how much it can help you relax. In through the nose and out through the mouth. Like Trina said, smellling the roses and blowing out the candles.

We also have a wonderful anxiety and panic forum if you think that might help you. For now, just do what you can. Take breaks... Give yourself some free time, earn it if you have to to set small goals. You are going to do fine... Have faith in yourself.

Hugs, Karen

Trina,

We posted at the same exact time... lol...

Hugs, Karen