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Mattie,

Well if you don't want any help, then nothing will change.

You need to reach out to someone you trust and talk about how you feel and what your possible options are depending on your age and living situation.

Stay strong and reach out, it isn't all that hard, we all did it!
Peace
Trina

Mattie, I totally understand. I've been there before - very recently. I know it's an awful feeling, but you have to know you're not alone & there are great people here who not only are willing to listen, but understand what you're going through. Don't give up. When I feel like you're feeling I give myself a day to hibernate, but the next day I push myself to do something....anything. Yes, it's easier said than done, but it helps. Also, if you get help you won't have to live like this, you can feel good & be happy.