New Here....

Hello all, I've had depression since I was a teen. I'm now 42 & still dealing with it. I'm on meds for depression & anxiety and typically I can cope okay. However, throw something stressful in my life and I'm on a downward spiral. I've had this so long I know when it's coming, but it doesn't make dealing with lifes issues any easier.

I'm divorced with 2 children who are out of the house. I was alone for a very, very long time and I accepted it. Then when I wasn't looking or trying I met someone. He was very good to me, he understood my depression and was true supporter of me. Well, he hates his job & is going to be relocating far away. I can't leave my family here and he said he's not ready to live with someone. This has certainly made the holidays much harder than normal to cope with. I'm not in a good place and I want out. I don't know what my purpose in life is. I feel so alone & hopeless. I just don't want to be here any more or live this life....

Needless to say along with meds I'm back in therapy. As I'm sure you know some days are easier than others, but the holidays have never been easy for me. This guy was really good for me & he truly cared about me. I hate that I'm now alone again. I did go get a dog to keep me going. If I didn't I would never get out of bed. He has kept me going, but on nights like tonight he's overwhelming & I feel bad for not giving him attention.

Anyway, that's a little about me. Thank you all for being here. It helps to know I'm not alone.

I'm glad you found this place. Its really helped me and hopefully others. I definitely get the added stress bringing you down. I'm not sure how long I've had depression but I remember being in my freshmen year of college and a dr telling me that I was depressed. At that time I wasn't ready to hear it. I did manage until my marriage fell apart (which funnily enough was because I was depressed and therefore pulling away from my spouse ).
I have been officially diagnosed 5 years ago and I usually have it managed. I also have ocd, anxiety, and ptsd so my delicate mental health can be easy to topple. Despite the difficulties I enjoy every small celebration. Like letting my son sweep and not coming after to fix it.
Your story gives me some hope. Maybe I can get where I'm better at adjusting or sensing what's coming on.

Hi melodies,

Just saying hi and welcome.

Sorry to hear about your depression. I suffer from depression as well. I'm in therapy and I think it really helps. Dogs are wonderful animals. I have a soft spot for them.
I know it's hard having someone who understands you and is there for you move away. Know that we are here for you.

Take Care

UA

Hi Melodies,

Welcome to the forum!

you instinct of getting a dog was a good one. We have 3. The last one was a foster, I spirals down ended up in crisis and my husband decided we needed to keep her for me! LOL

Anyway, the unconditional love you will receive will do you good.

I am 52 and still trying to figure out what I want to do when I grow up and get better! Your idea of working with teens sounds very good. They need so much honest guidance these days.

Keep posting here, you are never alone, we accept, listen and support each other here!

Stay strong.
Peace
Trina

I'm so happy I found this forum & all of you. I truly appreciate the encouragement & support. I know I will eventually get through this bump in the road, but right now it's truly overwhelming. Thanks again everyone!