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Posted 1/9/2013 2:20 PM (GMT 0)
rolleyes  or the first time today i saw a "shrink", i sat there talking and he sat there writing and writing  and then prescribed ciprolex?? gonna go pick it up now and then what?? what's going to happen? How can you prescribe medication to someone who over thinks everything. I googled everything i could find about this medication so now im worried, i wont be able to handle the side effects which means ill stop taking it which means ill never get better?

I come from a family that dont tolerate this sort of nonsense, if my mother knew she would tell me to pull my act together and stop looking for attention! Am i though? I mean can someone actually feel everything i feel and have that be "normal"?

My hubby knows that im seeing a doctor and taking meds but i dont even think he cares. I work in a corporate enviroment so i cant be having side effects at work! They already think im crazy now ill be crazy in overdrive...

 

im so scared to be honest, i just wish there was someone there that i could actually talk too, somebody that cared about how I was doing. But everytime i talk to my husband he gets this scared look on his face like he cant believe what he got himself into with me.

 

I just want to be normal, not feel lonely and not feel like a drama movie playing on the big screen for the world to see. cool cool cool

Posted 1/9/2013 2:27 PM (GMT 0)
Try the medication, you may or may not have the side effects. But this is the only way you are going to get better. I over think a lot and got on abilify and it helped me. Now I can take life one day at a time.

I hope that you feel better soon. Welcome to the forum. Try not to look everything up on the internet, it only scares people.

Best wishes for a good day.

Hugs, Karen
Posted 1/9/2013 3:57 PM (GMT 0)
Watzgiree

Welcome to the forum and Woah! You are forecasting the future before the next 5 minutes happen! Slow down and give yourself a break!

Just because the med has side effects, do not mean YOU will have them. Everyone is different.

Do some deep breathing, in count to 3, out through the mouth count to 3. Do this at least 3 times in a row when you feel your self becoming overwhelmed. Another trick when you get like that is to hold ice cubes in your hands;until it hurts. It you bring you back down to reality and slow your thoughts and mind racing.

Try the meds, if they don't work, there are others. we all have been one more than on medication, alot of us are on "cocktails"; several medications. It takes time to see what works.

Shrinks [doctors] takes notes so they can get it right next time they see you. Don't be offended. He/She was listening you will be more comfortable when you realize next visit the doctor knows your history.

Try this web site it may be good for you.

www.moodgym.anu.edu.au./welcome

Stay strong
Peace
Trina
Posted 1/10/2013 5:01 AM (GMT 0)
Morning All, Thank you so much for all the replies and advice!!! I took my first pill last night... it was very strange. Shaking, sleepy, jaw pulling stiff... hehe i basically felt like i was tripping on mushrooms LOL but im calmer, I think for me right now it just feels good to know that im dealing with this. i feel a bit uneasy when i think about people finding out but Im willing to give it all a try. My husband though has been sweet, he sat with me last night and just listened while i spoke.

Good Luck to All of you for the day ahead and thank you for taking the time to respond.

**Kisses**
Posted 1/10/2013 5:18 PM (GMT 0)
Thanks for posting and it is wonderful your hubby is supportive.
Know that the current side effect is common among most of the drugs and will dissipate in time, as your body becomes use to the medication. The feelings of being calm will remain, if it does not let the doctor know right away.

Glad you are seeing the positive side of things, keep doing that and it will be easier to get through.

Keep posting we are here for support and to listen! There is a member that would like to start a chat room, if you are interested please review the threads and answer accordingly.

Peace
Trina
Posted 1/11/2013 6:00 AM (GMT 0)
Good morning from the lands of South Africa. Ive been feeling really great on the medication! hhhmmm some things are a little different but all together good. Ive gone back to my piano so thats my alone tim each day. Hubby and i are doing great, we havent fought and i know thats because im more relaxed and dont snap at him all the time,

starting to think i should have dont this years ago!!

hehe I've surrended my bank card because as long as i dont see my money then i wont get these impulsive thoughts of spending.

im actually really enjoying this site,

YOU ARE ALL AWESOME!!

Enjoy the day and dont forget to breath and count to 3 - It actually works!! hehe
Posted 1/11/2013 6:29 AM (GMT 0)
chat sounds cool, lets do it
Posted 1/11/2013 6:04 PM (GMT 0)
Watzgiree,
I'm so relieved to hear you are doing better. I could definitely sensed your anxiety in your first post and I was very concerned about you. As I continued reading I was happy to get to your last post and hear that you've had great results. I know a lot of times we feel so alone especially when we feel that are families/spouses brush us off as if everything is just "in our heads" so to speak. I get tired of hearing people say, "that's life, get over it" or "it's all in their head, they don't need medication", etc, etc. I was raised with those thoughts instilled in me and all I can say is thank God I don't believe it any more. My response these days to people who say things like that is, "If you have diabetes are you going to treat it with medication or ignore it and hope it gets better? If you have heart disease are you going to treat it with medication or ignore it and hope it goes away? If you have cancer are you going to treat it with medication or ignore it and hope it disappears?" I can almost guarantee you that everyone will say they are going to treat it with medication. That's when you say, "Depression is a chemical imbalance in the brain so why would I ignore it when I can treat it with medication that will balance out the chemicals and make me feel healthy again? A lot of times when you explain things that way they understand. Nine times out of ten it's a lack of knowledge that leads them to say they things they say. They just need to be educated.
Anyway, I'm so happy you are feeling better and your husband is being more supportive.
Hugs,
Jen
Posted 1/14/2013 2:06 PM (GMT 0)
Afternoon from the land of the Looney Toones!!!

Good day today I thought, I think in general things are getting better. Saturday was bad though, anxious about something, itchy fingers and couldn't sit still BUT.... I have a new hobby that doesnt cost anything and I cant really see myself failing. I've gone to playing piano, lets face it i could never really play but im working on this piece[My Own Creation] - and if I must say so myself I LOVE IT. It's so romantic and sweet and intense, I love the way the melodies take you from one mood to the next. Ive become so obsessed I practice even when im at work and dont have a piano, but I can still hear my sound. I spend atleast and hour a day.

Im still lonely though I think, I mean... I dont have girlfriends or anything like that so there is nobody thats willing to listen to me rave about my new hobby. I think thats most of my problems, In a world of people I know, Who really knows me? Anyway...

I think about each one of you on this site... and I wish you all the best and alll the love and all the feelings of calm and peace in the world.

NICE TO KNOW IM NOT ALONE!
Posted 1/14/2013 4:00 PM (GMT 0)
Watzgiree,

Welcome to the forum if I have not done that before!. So glad that you are doing better in general.

Skills are important and playing the piano is a good one. I have
started to learned with a keyboard. I am 51 and putting a few monsters to rest while I do this.

Stick with it you can only do well!

Remember the chat tomorrow!

Peace
Trina
Posted 1/14/2013 4:34 PM (GMT 0)
Hi Waltzgiree... I feel very similar. Feel none cares. My family has asked me to stop talking about my depression they can t take it any more. I feel very alone very scared.
Posted 1/14/2013 5:54 PM (GMT 0)
I know that you mentioned before Dede that you are faking being in a good mood, this does often help us to get in a better mood. I hope it does for you. I posted to you on your thread, but again, welcome to the forum.

Hugs, Karen
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