break up help.

Hello everyone. I've been in a relationship with a wonderful woman for a year. Like in every relationship, we've had our ups and downs. She left me yesterday and I'm having an awful time. I have dythemic disorder, general anxiety disorder, and panic attacks. She came over to pick up her things tried to talk to her about it. She seemed to linger a lot of past things I've done that have upset her. I do understand that it takes both people for things like that to get better, and have tried. She never spoke to me about it which has frustrated me. Never the less, its been really hard on me. I cared greatly for this woman, but she didn't seem to care at all when she came by. I know she didn't cheat, but it was hard for her to deal with my struggle with my disorders. Any advice? Currently I've been helping my sister take care of her baby(my nephew), but that's it. Any suggestions? And thank you very very much.

No, sadly, I used to be on Zoloft, aterax, and concerta. I also used to go to therapy, but the therapist didn't really know how to handle clients like me. I lost health insurance, so I'm no longer on anything or attending therapy. I've been doing as many things as possible to better myself such as write a letter to no one about how I feel and why, walk, or try to get my mind off things with school. They all don't seem to help me at all. Thank you Karen. I'm just hoping to find some options I have to deal with this.

I would also like to add I have also suffered from bulemia, and am a survivor of three attempts, and I am horrified reverting.

Thank you a lot, Trina. I sing proffessionaly and it has helped a bit. I haven't tried painting, but I will give it a try. I'll try. Thank you so much. I am staying with my sister, brother-in-law, and nephew. It has helped a lot being around positiveness. I just fear for what might come when I return home. I love with my parents with my mother that has a lot of anxiety and doesn't get it treated and says the wrong thing at the wrong time a lot. I want to stay positive, bit its hard to do that when the people around me aren't so

Well I felt okay last night and slept okay while I was asleep, but I woke up at 6 AM and its been very hard to go back to sleep. The emotion flood back and its very hard and takes a lot of energy to keep at a calm state. My ex and I did used to share the bed and I'm probably use to that. Is there a way to break this habit? It's really not wonderful feeling.

Thank you again, Karen. In stayed up as much as I could last night until I fell asleep. That worked very well, but I just fear waking up. Maybe I'll try to write a letter or paint tomorrow.

I am sure you do not want to hear this now. However, is it not better you found out now, then to have found out after marriage and perhaps children?


Hang tough, you will survive even though it hurts like heck!

Peace
Trina

Yes Angel, It is just awful, it will make you stronger though in the end.
Take time and grieve, don't wallow to long though, you are worth more than that!

I'm actually moving rooms in the house, so maybe that'll help. Thank you JB1.

Maybe things need to be repeated. Don't give up. It is hard right now, but things will get better. You may just have to ride the storm out. We are all at different levels in our healing journeys and will share what works for us.

Depression stinks. Especially during this time of the year. Know that spring is just around the corner. The days are getting longer. Try to get out and go for a walk. It does help. Take care, keep posting.

Hugs, Karen