welcome to the forum!
Karen gave you a good link, I have you use it.
As a VET the VA has benefits you have hook into . I would start by calling your local VA advocacy office and ask about
mental health/depression assistance.
qin; Also welcome to the forum. Sorry for you situation in China, I hear it is not very comfortable. The world economy is not good at all at the moment. Perhaps it will improve soon. we can only hope and pray.
for you both, do keep posting. We listen, support the best can for each other here at the forum. Always a good place to vent.
Peace
Trina