I thought that by being diagnosed with major depression things would begin to lift up a bit...
But apart from these long days of sadness and grief and complete lack of ability to complete the simplest tasks, I began to have frequent switches of the mood. From hyper active to really low, irritated and very angry. One moment laughing, mourning the next.
Now I have been diagnosed with borderline personality disorder with depressive episodes.
Things are really **** right now........ Hardly anyone around me understands how difficult it is to control these emotions. They still believe it's a matter of choice... Even though they drive me insane and I feel like ripping their heads off for being so very clever and full of 'relevant and helpful' advices, I would never wish them to experience the psychotic moments that I do. I began taking another medication. I have one for depression from before and now one to sedate me a bit...
Is it just me or is this getting rather worse...?
Post Edited (JARA Cimrman) : 5/28/2013 4:43:31 AM (GMT-6)