New here and having hell with my depression.

Hi, I just joined because I'm looking for more help than I am getting. I need somewhere to talk to people who know how it feels to be depressed.
I have a lot more going on than depression and we still havent figured it all out. At first it was "is is bipolar?" then it was just major depression. Now I'm being treated for Anxiety and Depression AND a low thyroid. But I feel there's more to it than that. I have three different doctors. And I cant figure anything out.

I'm ruining relationships left and right and I Have no idea how to fix them anymore. I have screwed them up beyond repair I feel. But I cant lose those people. I dont want to. I want to keep them, I want to fix it. I just dont know how.

And I am rambling.

Hello. I'm Alyse.

Alyse welcome to the forum.

relationships are tough to hold on to on the best of days. don't beat yourself up for things not working out. Remember, it works both ways in relationships.

MDD, bipolar, thyroid and these things are illness's and are to be treated and respected as illness's. It is tough when the doctor's don't agree on diagnosis and treatment. Makes it rough on us. Continue to be proactive for yourself, don't give up looking for the right doctor, you will find the answers!

We all also go through lots of medications and combo of meds til the right ones are found for us. I when through 15 medications and 8 combos 'til the magic formula was found that helped me. It all depends on your special group of dx's.

Continue to post here you will get support and ideas. We listen and care for each other the best we can.

Peace
Trina

Yeah. I can apologize to most of my friends but my best friend I have drug through hell and back. I'm sorry and explaining myself don't work anymore. I flip flop on how I feel and I can say something in the heat of the moment that I dont even mean. And if I cool down I can come back to it and say exactly how I feel and it be the complete opposite.

I've been on a few medications. Currently I am on Lexapro, and Lamictol for my anxiety/depression and Liothyronine for my thyroid.

I've tried Zoloft and a high does of lexapro before. Those didn't work. Zoloft was like a sugar pill, no difference.

This just sucks. Some days or weeks I can be fine, and normal. I wouldnt say I am ever "happy" just kind of "here".

So I'm browsing the forums and reading what everyone as to say. It's nice to have a place where people know what you're talking about.

Thank you. :) And Good Afternoon now.