Hi Moving
Welcome to our house! But sorry you had to visit...
As Karen said, meds are most effective when we add counseling to the mix. My darkest periods have always been when I was not talking to somebody objective and a professional. This forum is a great place for support acceptance and comraderie, so please keep posting but please look into counseling. It is so hard trying to do it on your own, y'know?
Also, changing or increasing meds may be needed. I don't want to be discouraging but sometimes it takes several meds before we find the right one. They do take 6-8 weeks to kick in, which can be so difficult when we feel sooo awful.
I was in a really bad place for awhile til I found a new doc and we changed me from effexor to cymbalta. After 5 long weeks, I started to feel some lifting in my spirit, enough to make me fight the depression again. So, don't ever give up and please let us know how you are doing. We have a great thread called "daily check-in" where we just gabe about daily life or problems. These are my friends and I hope you will join us. We love new folks.
So, keep us posted
Mags