I was physically abused by my father. I was mentally and emotionally abused by my mother. I was sexually abused by my sister and grandfather.
I was doing extremely well in life and in the best shape of my life in 2008. Then I was in a roll over MVA and have had many surgeries which has weakened my immune system and developed numerous health issues. I have been bed ridden for 2 years. Right before I became bed-ridden I went to see a counselor which was a HUGE mistake as I spent thousands of dollars and it was very obvious by her facial expression she did not have the skills to deal with my intense situation. She told me to cut off my family and build a new network of friends due to all the abuse. That would have been great advice if I was healthy but it was literally at that point my health took a huge dive!
My sister has always been moms favorite. So when I told them of the sexually abuse she and my dad said I was lying. I told them when I was 40 years old. So I took the counselors advice and cut them off which was in Nov 2011. In December, the next month, my health plummeted and I lived alone and was extremely ill. So I tried to patch things over to get help. They refused and I begged and pleaded till June 2012. The only reason they helped me is because they were shamed into by my uncle when he called them out on it. So they finally agreed to help me and moved me in. I have always been extremely independent due to my childhood. It certainly was not what I wanted to move in with abusive parents but I had no choice...
Some examples of mom's abuse. Always telling my dad to leave and take me but never mentioning my sister. Her being previously married and had my sister and everyone in the entire family knowing but me when I figured it out on my own at 14 that she was older than they were years married. What a betrayal! I had severe nightmares as a child which now I know is from the trauma I went through.
So when I moved in it all started over. She resented me and has never wanted me. When she gets mad at me she will not feed me. She is hateful to me and tries to do things to make me hurt and suffer worse. The nightmares have started up again and I feel so trapped. I live on disability which takes every penny for doctor bills. My cobra just ran out and was denied ocare. She already complains about taking me to the dr as it is so going to another counselor even if money was not an issue would be impossible as I am dependent on assistance.
I am extremely grateful and appreciative they are helping me. It is hard though because I know they are only doing it out of guilt.
Sorry this is so long but need to give the background so you could understand my situation.
So if anyone feels compelled to give me a word of encouragement I would truly appreciate it! I need some love please! :(