I just read everyones posts. I'm still here but I havent found a solution to my mood swings yet. I've switched to celexa and I'm so nautious plus coming off of Paxil I got the electrical shock brain thing going right now. I've been on Wellbutrin, Lithium, Zoloft, I don't even know if they can help me. It's harder and harder to shut off the negative voices in my head, that no one likes me, that I'm a crappy mother, that my family hates me, that I just don't get what life is about
, that everyone I meet doesn't like me before they get to know me, that everyone is against me, especially at night I just cry myself to sleep a lot. I'm so so so tired of this and I'm not sure how much longer I can hold on. I've been missing a lot of my appointments at BHR and my counselor is so upset with me I think she hates me too. I just feel like everything sucks. I've tried everything, medications, I work out, I jog in the sunlight, take my vitamins, don't know whats left to try. I even joined a gym and its torture to go, I don't like how people look at me. I just don't want anyone to look at me anymore. I've been in the hospital with a mental breakdown twice and I'm not ever going back it sucked. When I try crisis lines, all they suggest is "you should go to the ER" do doctors really know anything about
depression other than how to drug you? Why is it this way? They can put people in outer space but they can't figure out how to stop a sad person from crying?
Post Edited (condoleezaiscool) : 8/5/2005 7:31:41 PM (GMT-6)