I feel blue...

kat listen to that inner voice. I was where you are right now about two months ago. I was truly scared. So scared I didn't trust myself behind the wheel of a car. I've been depressed at least three times in the last 10 years so I knew the symptoms well. When your inner voice starts telling you enough is enough then its time to get some help. Its a slow process believe me, but I was like you that I was willing to try anything. I almost didn't call a councelor but I truly believe its been something that I've needed for a long time. Take that chance on yourself. Their is a better way to live than how we are all coping these days. It won't be easy but it will be the best decision you've ever made. You'll still have up and down days I know I sure do. I'm having a particularly down day myself today, but I know it has to do a lot with lack of sleep. do what's best for you on your own time frame but do call someone. Their's nothing wrong with getting a little extra help these days. what is wrong is ignoring it that's the worst we can do for ourselves. I was tired of ignoring my depression. I'm ready to face it head on and beat it. I know deep down their's a happy me in there somewhere. Go for it, pick up that phone and call a counselor a man a woman whomever you feel most comfortable talking with. They'll help you. You have to want it though.

  Hi, Kat and welcome to depression,

Wow, that sounded stupid...welcome to depression like you were arriving to a party or something. Anyway. sad to say that depression is a very real illness with very real symptoms. A lot of people say, "What's you're problem, what do you have to be depressed about"? They haven't a clue. Who know's, maybe they are even suffering from depresion and just don't know it. Neither here nor there. If your depression is causing you sleepless nights, strange appetite habits, and you just feel out and out crappy, then you and I and just about everyone else on this forum have something in common.

Kat, I am sorry that you are suffering from depression and it is something we have to learn to deal with. Each person is suffering from depression for different reasons. It's not fair, but either is life sometimes. I have been on and off the boards for about a month going through my own emotions and I decided this AM that I was going to have a better attitude and try to be helpful instead of down in the dumps. Everyone here is wonderful but there are times that we tend to "disappear" for a while. I think that's because we are dealing. It doesn't mean that no one cares. There are no cliques' or private groups. We all help one another and the best medicine is just knowing we are here for eachother. I have had to learn that others have more issues than I and to help is just as good are getting help. Being a "newbee", you will learn that in time if you perservere. As I have said so many times, we are names without faces. No one judges you on what you look like or if you have your stature in a community. That has no consequence here. We care about one another. Please feel free to post whenever you feel low or want help and compassion. You will have friends here. Taking a hiatusfor a few weeks has been good medicine for me. It made me realize that there is more to life then feeling sorry for myself!

Sue 

Just adding my welcome and echoing Rosie's advice to seek out some professional help for the feelings you are having right now. Threre are many resources availble to you to help walk through the darness you are feeling. Keep us posted on how you are doing.