Acnaib
Hello and welcome to HealingWell. Your story re the medications reads much like mine. I have always had a weight problem and really struggled to keep my weight down. I am also 5'4" and at one time weighed 126 lbs. My physician put me on AD's and the weight just kept on creeping up. In 2006 I was started on Cymbalta and my Pdoc swore it was weight neutral..............NOT. I gained over 20 more pounds on top of what I had put on from the other AD's.
The Cymbalta never truly kicked in for me and after being on the med for 1 1/2 years and feeling more depressed second degree to the weight gain I chose to wean off the med. It has been 3 months off now and I have dropped a couple of pounds............ I hate going out in public and running into friends as people always feel they can tell you what they think and I am sensitive about the weight gain and no clothes that fit.
I went to a wedding last month and ran into an old friend who made the comment about how good I looked, and stated "your face looks fuller, and I mean that in a good way" What the heck ???????????? I don't want a fuller face or body.
She of course is a petite size 8. I know this seems so petty to a lot of people but how we feel about ourselves plays a role in depression. I am trying hard to feel good about myself.
I know where your coming from and what you are going through.
Gentle Hugs
Kitt