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Posted 6/8/2014 8:37 PM (GMT 0)
Good afternoon ....

   I tried for 20-minutes to brush out Gizmo's rear, tail and rear legs. He was a stinker. He knew something was cooking - so he turned that into  play and barking session. Even though he didn't look so good, I decided to take him over to Petsmart for 30-minutes or so.

   The big boy, Igloo was there ... all 94-pounds of him. He actually didn't look so good. And then Lilly was there, a very old and very small 28-pound Samoyed. She looked great. Her master, Joyce, did one nice job of grooming on her. Lilly is quite old, doesn't have that much time left - so I think Joyce might be a good future home for Giz. And Joyce really likes him. Joyce and I with both dogs - worked a 3-hour fund-raiser together a little over a year ago.

   Chart ..... thanks for the thoughts.

   Michele .... sounds like a very good idea to talk to a Pulmonary doctor.

   JB1 ...... Chicago proper or as defined by the city - is about 30-miles going North/South and over 15-miles going from the lake to the West. But ... when you include the 100+ suburbs, the Chicago area extends into 6-counties and should be over 80-miles N/S by over 40-miles from the lake to the West.

   For years long ago, I fought the traffic going to Roosevelt University or Chicago Musical College within - in the Auditorium Building (an architetural classic). It was at the corner of Michigan Avenue and Congress - with the Buckingham Fountain right across the street. A very cool place - but so nasty to get to. I got my fill of either driving downtown or driving to Oak Park (of Wright fame) - then taking the "L" downtown - for years.

   That's part of why I stay out of that area so much! If you were into historical buildings - check out the Auditorium Theatre built around the turn of the 19th century - proclaimed to be nearly acoustically perfect. It was completely renovated, including the original type of light bulbs, in the 60's/70's! I had the honor of graduating in the Auditorium Theatre. You could hear someone on stage talking - from the 6th floor seating.

   NYC certainly has it's share - but Chicago is a terrific city for architecture. My sales pitch is over!!! Sorry!!!!

   Karen ..... I'm not going to be burying myself in the corner. There is a support group (the good one) next Thursday - and Friday, I hope to go see some live music. And I should be getting a call from my daughter tonight - see if bought a cowgirl hat yet!

Notes:

   I wish food tasted better. I went thru this two years ago and dropped so much weight, I looked like a walk-on from "The Living Dead"! Gonna pick-up some chicken wings!!!

Peace and wellness

Rob & Gizmo

  

Posted 6/8/2014 9:44 PM (GMT 0)
Afternoon, all. Weekly check-in.

Three more days of school. After that I am going to apply at my local Wegmans (a fab grocery store that has a good worker rep) and apply for unemployment.

Yesterday was my theatre praxis. It was pretty easy, though a few questions made me mad (over-generalizing on texts) and some of the technical stuff I had to guess. One more in ten days or so. Afterwards we went to a local state park in the mountains, hiked for a couple of hours, got lost, got found, grilled dinner, and came home. Today has been shopping and cleaning... the fumes from scrubbing the bathroom made me sick. My hormones are messed up (again), and I am fighting residual pain from yesterday.

All my planted sunflower seeds were stolen by squirrels. My other plants are coming up slowly. Seed is cheap, but it takes a long time.

Still continue stressed out. Spring/Early summer has always been a hard time for me, since for the past twenty years I have been on an academic schedule. I always seem to have a bad time when school wraps up for the summer. I am a person who needs schedules and challenges.

I think of chawl often. Deity smiles on all.
Posted 6/8/2014 10:48 PM (GMT 0)
Now the resident jerk is being a jerk to the kids, too. He was just being a jerk to me with lots of attitude and silence. Now he's playing xbox and screaming (yes screaming) obscenities at the game. I've got kids here and the screaming scared them. I asked him to stop he said no, not that nicely. Then I am working on the kids' computer so I told my 10 year old to just close the bedroom door. Jerk face uses a nasty tone and tells him not to do it. I go in there and ask him to please not take out whatever is wrong with him on the kids. He says no to that, too. I'm fed up and if I had somewhere to take these kids I would and let him stew in his own nastiness.
Posted 6/8/2014 11:13 PM (GMT 0)
Hi, I'm new here. I have chronic pain and have been on every Fybro. Pain med. there is and now I'm on Methadone x5 clonopin x2 Temazapam x1, by the way I was reading about people like myself that have sleep problems and I've been on everything and Temazapam is the best yet, I also take a Flexeral with it because I get RLS and muscle spasms, I had a RX for Requip but I stopped getting them when I switched Doc. I also get Tramadol x2 and Narco 7.5 x 3 all in a day, I probably have more RX but this is what I'm taking and I still have pain, Is this normal anyone? This is sort of newish, I have sciatica on my left side and sometimes I feel it trying to come on my right but thank God it never sets in, but my new issue is it feels like my bones hurt from the inside, in both my legs, I feel like if someone had bone cancer this is what it would feel like, any ideas anyone? I've had several surgeries C-Section, Myomectomy, Total Hysterectomy, 4 cyst removal surgeries that resulted in hospitalization, I need a final surgery on a Pilidonal cyst, I've read that probably isn't true though and that's why it's called Pilidonal disease and not just cyst removal, I'm super soar for no reason right now or I could go over the awesome experience of wound packing and sinus scraping and all that fun stuff with you:) I'm glad to have found this site as I think I have a wealth of knowlage
Posted 6/8/2014 11:19 PM (GMT 0)
Yes I hit submit trying to spell knowledge correctly, trying to erase it, lol, how embarrassing. Anyways I'm happy to hear what other feel and think and know I'm not alone, I love to help others when I can. I also have a son and husband with Aspergers Syndrome, I live in Mi. And would be happy to guide anyone through the SSI process or help with the school and IEP's and just who to go to for help all around in that area but when it comes to myself I'm baffled, I just never get better but I never die either, weird! Thank you everyone and have a Blessed night. My faith I believe gets me through 1 day at a time, I one day would love to actually look forward to tomorrow, I'll let you know when that day comes.
Posted 6/8/2014 11:45 PM (GMT 0)
Hi Fibrosmtng,

Welcome to the depression forum, though I wonder if you meant to post on the fibromyalgia forum. You can post on both if you want. I moderate on both forums and the fibromyalgia forum is awesome.

I took the Norco for a long time, though I find oxycodone helps more. But I wouldn't ask for it as it will look like you are seeking drugs. It will just take time for you to work your way there. Though to me, nothing actually takes the pain away. We just have to learn to live with it. I have pain everyday and I have had it since about 2002 or so. You learn to put it in the background so it isn't so noticeable.

Most of all, keep moving and get regularly scheduled sleep. Both really help.

If you are suffering with depression too and don't take anything for it, I would talk to your doc and see if you need something. Some antidepressants also help with pain. Not that you need anything, but you might. Narcotics do depress us.

I have suffered with sciatica too before, it usually hits one side. Not that it doesn't hit both, but I always get it on my right side. I haven't had it in a long time.

I use to have restless leg syndrome. I haven't had that in a long time either. I try to walk everyday and I think that helps.

Do keep mobile, and do check out the fibromyalgia forum. I think you will find a lot of help there.

Take care

Hugs, Karen...
Posted 6/9/2014 4:44 AM (GMT 0)
Hello,

Karen- I agree dental is a pain in the butt. Hope you had a good day hun.

JB- If things are that bad I would call the dentist and go back for an evaluation just in case. Take care.

Mustang- Feel better my dear, take it as easy as you can. Go to whatever doc you need to that way you feel better.

Jamie- We are all here for you.

Well my friends I am tired sunburnt sore and miserable all around. I cant type anymore. I will try again tomorrow.
Posted 6/9/2014 8:55 AM (GMT 0)
thx missjd.
hi chartreux. haven't seen you much, you ok? hope so. going just under 5 weeks. been sleeping all day and awake all night, again!!! buttons escaped today. gate fell. neighbour found her and stayed with her for awhile. see ya soon guys. sorry can't read each post on this thread too many in one hit. just know i am thinking of you all.
Posted 6/9/2014 2:03 PM (GMT 0)
Good morning ......

   I wish I could package this weather!!!!

   HT ..... did that mean you're going in 5-weeks?

   Fibrosmtg ..... welcome.

   AV ..... was "jerk face" drinking? Or is he just that oblivious to human decency? I don't believe I ever screamed at my daughters. They were disciplined a few times - but never screamed or sworn at!

   Myself ..... one more down. Congrats!!!!

Notes:

   I talked to my Austin girl last night. She was good - and busy at work too. I went over my options with her (from the Oncologist) and then started the conversation of "lots of revising former plans need to be done"!

   She's coming back into town for her birthday in early September. It really sounds like her big sister has also put her out of her life. I would have died to have either a brother or a sister ... but "the grass is greener on the other side" isn't it?

Have a good week all.

Rob & Gizmo

  

Posted 6/9/2014 2:35 PM (GMT 0)
I'm a mess today! was sitting at the computer normally yesterday and after just 5 minutes left leg feel asleep and I needed help, then I dropped a glass jar last night, which shattered and needed help again, so very embarassing...
So very tired today and I have 2 doctors appointments set for later in the week...
Posted 6/9/2014 2:55 PM (GMT 0)
yeah rob 5 weeks before i fly out. will be gone for 6 weeks.
chaertreux, sorry you are having a hard time. many healing thoughts i send to you.

unwinding. is late. playing tunes. cold in the kitchen, just had toast. will do my last needle then i will lay down and rest. just warming the lounge-room up. fixed heater. gas, so i will warm room up and get ready for some nice sleep / rest. have cleaned up a bit today. just playing some tunes.
Posted 6/9/2014 3:08 PM (GMT 0)
Good morning all!!!

I have been up since very early, then went back to bed for awhile. It is a beautiful day!!! Just got done going for a walk. The weather is awesome, though we could use some rain right now.

Got our garden in. It is small. Just tomatoes, hot and sweet peppers and beans. I bought the tomato plants and the pepper plants but we planted seeds for the beans. I am excited. I love fresh green beans and tomatoes. I like the beans raw and cooked. Jasmine likes raw beans too...

Jamie, I bet you are getting excited about your trip!!! I am so happy for you.

Chartreux, I am so sorry you are having a hard time right now. Just don't be hard on yourself. I know you are embarrassed and are feeling useless, but that isn't the case. Sounds like you got some healing time going on. I hope that you feel better soon.

Rob, I hope your oldest daughter contacts you on Father's day. I know your younger daughter will. Have faith that the older one will too. If she doesn't, well, it is her loss... But I know it would make you feel loved. And better.

MissJD, I hope your sunburn isn't too bad. I burn easy and rarely tan. One year my girlfriend had a tanning bed and I got an awesome tan. But other than that, I generally just burn...

Take care all. Hello to anybody that I missed and I wish you all a good day.

Hugs, Karen...
Posted 6/9/2014 5:38 PM (GMT 0)
Morning all-

Char- hang in there. Just rest and save your energy.

Karen - a garden, how nice. Wish I had time for one.

AV- I hope last night was uneventful. Hope you are feeling ok.

Rob- storms expected here today. And summer storms aren't fun- it's so hot and icky afterward. Yuck!

Jamie- how you feeling? I know you are counting the days!! I hope you have a wonderful time.

Went to the doc this morning. Basically nothing she can do. Which I truly already knew. I thought maybe she would give me something stronger for pain. But she didn't. She did take me off the torradol and put me on a steroid. She said it would work faster. I hope.

I'm tired, I hurt and I just want to sit and cry but it hurts too much!! My depression is right there at the surface.

I had a training class scheduled for today and tomorrow, but I rescheduled them. I still have to teach college tonight.

Well I'm going to go lay down on my heating pad.

My love to all.
Posted 6/9/2014 8:28 PM (GMT 0)
Oh JB- something has to be wrong. I hope you can find relief tomorrow. Does laying on a heating pad help?
Posted 6/10/2014 12:58 AM (GMT 0)
JB: I'm so sorry you're in so much pain. Have you tried gargling with warm salt water?

Michele: *Hugs* to you. Have a nice dinner tonight and get some rest. I hope you'll feel better soon.

Karen: Your garden sounds nice and colorful with the peppers, tomatoes, etc. I like seeing gardens like that.

Jamie: Hope you got some rest.

Rob: I'm sorry your eldest has put her sis out of her life too. I'm really glad your younger daughter is in touch with you.
Lol about what Gizmo did. He sounds really fun! It's these little things that I'm sure you look back on and it makes you laugh at times.

Chartreux: I hope you leg is okay. Hope the doc apps goes well.

Fibrosmtng: Hello and Welcome

MissJD, AV: No gas on Sat but AV was right, the delivery in south of the country was just late. My mother went yesteday and filled up my tank. I didn't even know. It's only this morning on my way to work, I look at my tank to see how much I have remaining and it's full. When I phone her, she tells me she called and they got gas so she went yesterday and fill up for me.

Have a good night everyone!

UA
Posted 6/10/2014 1:05 AM (GMT 0)
Glad the gas got there

Today has been the worst of my life. Jerk face doesn't drink, he is just a bipolar unpredictable mess. He decided he wants the divorce done. I told him if he wanted to pay the lawyer my remaining to go ahead. Looks like that is happening tomorrow. I've been trapped in the kids in the house. My mom said she sent me some money to help with groceries (I didn't budget for 3 extra people). Money never showed and turns out she didn't actually send it. I was down to bread and peanut butter. I had to sell some of my stuff but I scrounged up 100 bucks for food. I get home and my son has eaten a full container of blueberriesin the car. My mom calls and just makes me feel worse. She thinks I just have to push through pain but it's not that simple. How can I make her understand that my back will spasm up so hard that I can't stand and my kneecaps dislocate frequently? I have been looking for work but it's hard to find something I can physically handle plus I've been mostly out of the workforce for 2 years. She threw college back in my face. Tells me I need to move to the town where her family lives. I ask her who's going to help me move and she says my cousins (the ones who didn't come to the kids party). Then the kids broke my computer. I'm just at my limit. I'm going to blow up and I'm trying hard to hold into that last shred of patience. I feel like a waste. Like a failure.
Posted 6/10/2014 1:59 AM (GMT 0)
Noooooooo AV!

You are not a failure!! You are one of the strongest woman I know!! A person's worth isn't how much money they make, or how many letters are behind their name to show their education. A person's worth is their values, their morals. How you treat people around you. The way you model a loving adult to your kids. These are the things that matter. I know it's hard to hold onto when people around you are so negative. But, dig deep! Your strength is there.

As far as jerk-wad. Let him pay for it and finalize it. Then you can take steps forward.

As far as mom and pain, she will never understand it until she experiences it herself. Sad I know. And believe me, I don't wish pain on anyone. But that's the only way to understand. I know for you, just walking is a task, sitting and then standing is a task. And being in pain just zaps our energy out of us. I had back pain for 12 years. Now I only get it at period time. However, these last few days with the constant lung pain has made me realize my lack of energy. Everything I have is spent trying not to move the wrong way, trying not to breathe deep. I'm freaking exhausted.

AV- don't let negative people in your life pull you down. They aren't worth your time.

Stick with us. We will carry you when you need it, push you when you need it, and give you a slap across the face when you need it!! Lol

Sending you hugs and lots of positive energy!!
Posted 6/10/2014 7:36 AM (GMT 0)
Hi everyone,

Jamie- We are thinking of you you too. I hope that you will be able to get back to regular sleep patterns soon. I am glad that Buttons didnt get hit or hurt by getting out. Rest my friend things will get better soon.

Rob- I am glad that one of your daughters is there for you. I hope that all the decisions are made together and things will always work for the best hun, hugs and kisses to you and Gizmo.

Char- I hope that things get better for you, will pray for you tonight and every night. Take things slow and easy.

Karen- I wish that the weather here was nice, it has been over 100* for 2 days. I really do not like this heat. Have a good day tomorrow and stay cool. lol

Mustang- I hope that this new med helps, and does so very quickly. Feel better soon hun.

JB- I have found that if I fall asleep on an ice pack it will help me, just a thought. I am so sorry that you hurt, my last removal was very sore and still is infact. I will be going back to a dentist in July or Aug, not sure what one yet.

Fibro- Welcome to the forums, I hope that you find peace here.

UA- I have never heard of a station that was outta gas, hmmm. Well I am glad that your mom put gas in for you that was nice of her.

AV- I am so sorry that your mom is a poot, that so mean of her. My gosh. YOU ARE NOT A FAILURE do not ever say that. You are doing the best that you can with what you are given. As for Jerk Face, tell him I said to leave you alone or I will come kick his booty off!

JB- Awesome advice to AV

Ok I think I got everyone, if I didnt do not take it personal, I am sore and tired.

So today was not too bad of a day although it was hotter than...... well you all know. My burn is a little better, I can not put aloe on me, I am allergic, dang. If I scratch the area it hurts so bad, so if it is itchy I grind my teeth. I painted my nails purple last night. I love them. I am going to go blonde in July on pay day. The heat is finally going away so now I am tired and not so sick to my tummy, I am having insurance problems so it is tricky to get meds. I was off and on the stupid phone all day trying to talk to a darn person and then gave up after 30 mins on hold!!!!!!!!! Well I am tired and cool now so I will be going to bed, Have a good night everyone.

Love and Hugs to everyone
Posted 6/10/2014 8:45 AM (GMT 0)
healing thoughts missjd.
hi to everyone. slept the day away. was a nice day apparently.
see ya all soon. keep well guys.

'may the force be with you'.
Posted 6/10/2014 12:40 PM (GMT 0)
Good Morning Everyone,

AV: I'm sorry things are so tough now and your mum is not making it easier. You're not a failure! You have been taking care of the kids of holding things together by yourself.
If he want the divorce now, I agree, let him pay.

MissJD: Every now and then we have 'no gas' problem here in our tiny island. I'm glad your burn is a bit better. Get some rest.

Jamie: Glad you got some rest.

JB, Myself, Karen, Trina, Rob, Chart,, everyone else-hello.

I have a training session to conduct this morning. I don't like these. Most of the times, the staff are negative. We have a new rule. Their test are now going to be marked. The pass mark is 80%. They never take it seriously. Looking forward to see how they'll do this time since it's being marked.

Have a good day everyone!

UA
Posted 6/10/2014 12:47 PM (GMT 0)
well, that should put a rocket up them ua!!!! have a good time. see ya soon.
Posted 6/10/2014 1:01 PM (GMT 0)
Good morning everybody!!!

It is a beautiful morning here. The sun is coming up, no clouds that I can see. We are suppose to get rain soon. We need it.

UA... I agree with Jamie, that ought to rocket them up!!! How are you doing? Good I hope.

I am watching for birds. I love to watch the birds. We have all kinds. I like the hummingbirds, but one wont let the others eat. He is a little pig...

Jamie, I hope you are having a good day too. Will be talking to you soon.

Hugs, Karen

PS Have a good day everybody!!!
Posted 6/10/2014 1:21 PM (GMT 0)
Lol Jamie & Karen. I sure hope so.

I am good for now Karen. Just trying to keep calm before training. I always get nervous. I like the hummingbirds too. We rarely see them here though.

Off to prepare. Training starts in exactly 37 mins.

UA
Posted 6/10/2014 1:41 PM (GMT 0)
Good luck with the training!!

Jamie, I hope you're getting enough rest.

Karen, these days of rain have the birds all nested up out of sight. I'm sick of the rain and we still have 2 more days of it.

Thanks everyone. I'm just frustrated. My life is not what I wanted it to be. It's hard to not feel like there's something wrong with me because I have no strong bonds with my family. My grandmother is in her 70s and her health isn't great. She can't handle more than 2 kids at a time and that can't be the 2 youngest. She is taking the 2 girls for a sleepover. My sister did finally call but didn't really say when she would get her kids. She says she is moving. She also said mom is going to send me money to pay for my sisters kids.

I get that she's hurting. I'm going the through the same thing. I may not be moving right now but I'm going to have to do it. I need a cheaper place. I just don't get dumping your kids on someone else. The past few days they have driven me nuts but it never occurred to me to send them to someone else.

I want to be productive. I am already struggling with defining my limits and then my mom says stuff about how I've just got to push through the pain. I push through pain everyday. I can't push through the back and knees. I've tried so many times and it just makes it so I can't get out of bed for a couple days. She just makes me feel worthless and like I'm just being lazy.

My laptop is dead. I can't replace it and the warranty is up. It sucks because the job I've had the last few weeks I can't do without my computer. I wasn't getting many hours between the kids and health stuff but every little bit of money helps. Here's hoping I can keep the boys entertained today.
Posted 6/10/2014 2:47 PM (GMT 0)
Morning all-

AV- how much longer will you have the kids?? You've got to be physically exhausted. Hang in there- big hugs!!

UA- you sound better lately. Are you feeling better? How did the training class go? As teachers we have to take a lot of tests like the one you are talking about. We usually get to do them on our own time, so you know what that means- we gather in someone's room and all take it together!! Lol!!

Karen- I love to see you post. You also seem to be doing better lately. I hope you truly are. I don't have trees in my yard so I don't get many birds. But my drive to the junior high goes through a heavily wooded park. Love seeing the red birds.

Rob- in the 90's again today. Ugh!! Too much heat!! Hope you got your coffee this morning.

JB- did you go to the dentist?

Trina- haven't seen much of you lately- you doing ok?

Jamie- how are your ribs? I understand the pain. How many days now till you see your love? I'm so excited for you!

Well last night, I started feeling a bit better. I guess it was the build up of all the meds. This morning back to square one. Waiting for everything to kick in.

Question- my kids bathroom doesn't have a fan in it and of course they take scalding hot showers. Above there shower, mildew has started to show. What's the best way to clean it? No I'm not planning on climbing the ladder today, but I will when I feel better.

I always fight my depression during the summer time. So far so good. Fingers crossed.

Joyce- if you are out there- I miss you! I hope you are doing well!

My love to all!
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