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Hello Hope everyone is doing well . I have been very depressed lately . I feel I cant go on anymore . I keep getting hurt by people who I give my all too . I do have family that cares . I dont think I am giving my best to them though as I should . I had a huge fall out with a friend and feeling like Im losing control . I was there for them like anyone and as usual I get hurt . I know I am too sensitive so thats a fault of mine . I always end up asking for forgiveness though I was not at fault just to try to make peace . I grew up in an unhappy abusive household . Things have always been broken . Now I am married and with small kids and a husband that does luv me but I feel like I dont deserve him at all . Its funny I am always that friend who is talking laughing confident into fashion beauty and positive and I just carry this hurt inside . People always look upto me but I feel like a failure . I was so close to this friend and now I feel like I lost them and its making me think all crazy thoughts . How many times do I lose people after being there . I am finding it hard to function on my work . The only place I am normal is around kids .Pray everyone here is ok . Thanks for reading .

Thank u Sean . I am new here . So I hope to interact with everyone here too . I have never been to therapy in my whole life but feel like its time now . I am used to just keeping it inside & the one there for everyone else . My work is affected I am in beauty and Health field. No one knows that I go through this as I put up a happy confident front . My last experience with that friend kinda has me down more then I ever felt . They meant the world to me .

Thank u again for your wishes Sean . I will try to contact some doctors etc

Welcome to the forum Anu888... I am glad you are going to talk to your doctor about how you are feeling. Things often aren't as bleak as they seem. I hope you and your friend make up soon.

I think a lot of us are the caregivers and don't look after ourselves. We do often put up a front and pretend everything is hunky dory. But that is one way to cope and get through life. Anytime anybody asks me how I am, I always say "good". Even if I am not. But I feel ignoring it helps...

I think counseling is a good place to start. I go and it really helps me. I see a psychiatrist too. It works out good.

I hope you are feeling better.

Take care and do keep posting.

Hugs, Karen...

Hi there,

Definitely agree with the going to see a therapist, they can help so much when our thoughts are just so down about everything, including ourselves.

It's so draining to act as though everything is okay, I used to do it for years but was dying inside.

For years and years I put everyone before myself but you must take care of yourself and be healthy.

My depression always makes me feel so worthless, useless etc, this is the depression talking, it's a relief to talk to a therapist, hope you are ok.

Thank you Michele . I am so happy u got some help . U dont deserve to have thoughts like that . Glad u r feeling better . I guess its an ongoing process . Its easy to avoid it but then some situations really exacerbate it .... its good to get the help u need ... Lots of Luv to u and u r doing great .......

Thanks Karen its a great forum and I am glad I found it with a lot of awesome people here sharing their stories .... its definitely easy to avoid it but I guess not healthy ... I will get some help as it is available and just need to make that call .... Thank u again .....Luv

Thank u Rob & Gizmo for ur kind words .....I will look into that ... I appreciate it so much ... hard to even talk about it as u r trying to be strong all the time and keep things inside ...& it is so not healthy especially comes out more when sad events happen in life ... Thank u again ....Best Wishes & luv

Thundercloud .... Thank u ... I know exactly what u mean ... growing up my family looked so perfect and FAB on the outside but inside the 4 walls there was so much going on which wasnt right ..I had to be brave and hide stuff ...I dont talk about it to anyone but funny I counsel all my friends etc who r depressed ... Im the one who needs help ... I will talk to someone ... I am glad u r talking to someone and I hope those thoughts r gone cuz U r awesome & beautiful ...I have seen depressed people r the strongest caring people out there & r just carrying a lot of hurt inside for a long time and getting help is the first step ....... Lots of Luv

Thank u all ...I am so thankful for all the advice ....

Thank u the happy turtle, Thanks for ur wishes ,means a lot .
Luv & best wishes to u too ....

Welcome
You are not to sensitive. That is crap. see a therapist for the abuse. I do and it has changed my life, mad me stronger.

I wish you Peace and comfort
Trina