Oh Darlin', You mention your parents and grades so you must be perhaps a teen or early twenties? If I could talk to my teenage self I would have told her to get help and the right medications if they're suggested. As a teen I made a few attempts. Finally married twice and had kids.
I was fifty before it was diagnosed as bipolar. Nothing to be ashamed of. It's an imbalance of something, depression is an imbalance of something. I wasted how many frickin' years not knowing what was wrong. Manic and creative and hyper. Then the crushing depression.
Veniflexin changed my life. It isn't magic but the right medication can hold your hand and help you cope. You've got your whole life ahead of you...and that's a good thing. The things that you have to tackle now will smooth out by your late twenties. But find the help you need now, either counseling or hospital.
Didn't read closely enough. Seventeen is hard, really hard but you can do this. I know a lot of people can't talk to their parents. But finding an adult friend or relative, teacher, therapist. Somebody who can encourage you face to face. You need a warm human body not a computer screen. But the computer screen means you're willing to reach out {{{hugs}}}
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