HealingWell
Search Close Search
☰

Never Good Enough

Support Forums
>
Depression
✚ New Topic ✚ Reply
❬ ❬ Previous Thread |Next Thread ❭ ❭
Posted 8/3/2014 9:16 PM (GMT 0)
I can't seem to make anyone happy. I'm constantly torn between both sides. I'm forever stuck in the middle of two sides and I can never make anyone happy. I don't know what to do anymore. I'm tired of putting up this front like this family is so close and perfect when it's not. I HATE MY LIFE. I wish someone would T-Bone me and instantly every time on my way to see them. God forbid I ruin there good name and dirty their perfect image. The only person that cares me is being pushed away because he doesn't want to disrespect them when they disrespect me. It's all my fault and he deserves better. If I make it passed tonight I hope knows how much I love him and how sorry I am for putting him through this crapty life of mine that nobody knows about. Nothing seems to work anymore. I've run out of options.

Post Edited By Moderator (getting by) : 8/3/2014 3:23:57 PM (GMT-6)

Posted 8/3/2014 9:27 PM (GMT 0)
Hi Justpassingthrough,

Welcome to the forum. I did have to edit your post for content, but none the less, we can understand what you are going through. It sucks to feel unloved.

But the thing is, what others think of us, does not define who we are. So what if they aren't happy, it is not your job to make them feel good. It is their own job. Step back from the situation and decide whether it is worth it or not. You are a good person, you can make friends, you don't have to depend on others to make you happy, or you them. We are responsible for our own happiness.

It kind of sounds like a family struggle, but I am not sure what exactly is going on with you. Just know you deserve to be happy and that you can achieve that.

Take some time and go to our first thread called "depression resources". There are a number of sites, numbers and some books that might help you. I hope you feel better soon.

Hugs, Karen...
Posted 8/3/2014 10:12 PM (GMT 0)
Hi JPS,

Karen has great advice, you can't make anyone else happy nor are you responsible for doing that, you can make yourself happy though.

Totally understand when you say you hate your life, I've been in the very darkest of depressions, I understand, but things can get better.

My family and I were never close...long story...it hurts, it does, I was actually blamed for everything all the time, but you are not responsible for them, I am concerned for you.

Keep coming on here, people understand, you might already have read other posts, it all helps, it really does, you deserve to be happy.

Wondering if you are in "talk" therapy? that can really help, let us know how you are? big hugs....
Posted 8/4/2014 4:39 AM (GMT 0)
Hi Justpassingthrough,

I'm sorry that you're feeling bad and feel like you've run out of options. I truly know that feeling and not feeling like trying anymore but there are always options for us.

I can honestly say when I'm at a really low point I really don't see those "options" I do feel like I've run out of options sometimes or like things are hopeless, when I hate my life and when I get like that I always need some help to get me out of it and to help me see that there are other options for me.

I usually need the help of a psychiatrist and a therapist and sometimes if I'm in one, a support group helps and even this forum has actually helped me. It's hard to get out of a really low place alone and it's okay to need help and support.

I tend to be one to isolate and not want to talk about things but it's best to reach out in whatever way you are most comfortable. If you keep getting to that point where you wish someone would t-bone you then you should think about calling the crisis line or your doctor or therapist if you have one because when I get those thoughts they don't tend to just go away and when I keep them to myself they only get worse.

I'm rambling on to try to say that you are not alone in how you are feeling but you truly do have other options, you just need a little support to help you see the other options.

I'm sending hugs your way!
✚ New Topic ✚ Reply