Need to lean on you

Dropping by to say hi to my old friends and to introduce myself to all the new friends.

Things were going well. No real signs if depression/ anxiety/ptsd . Well they have returned. I had been well managed with 200 mg of wellbutrin (I remember a time when I was taking about 11 pills a day - 2, 3 or 4 different medications).

I think I have been falling slowly. It started at the end of may when I received a note that my therapist would be leaving in june. I got a little anxiety. I have been with her from the beginning. She knows everything.

I haven't seen the psych Dr since May either. All was well taking meds and enjoying life. Today I barely wanted to get out of bed. I pushed and went to a friends house. Now I'm back to sad. I took half a klonopin. Should have taken a whole, maybe I would be sleep by now. Haven't taken it in next months and wanted to start slow.

Ugh. Is this going to go on forever. Been fighting the thoughts that play over and over. Trying to use some of the techniques I learned. They work briefly.

Wanted/needed to talk to someone, but I don't think they understand. So I turned to you guys, the place that kept me when I was at the point of despair.

Hope all is well. Need you a lot right now.

So glad you reached out to us!

you are not alone in loosing a trusted therapist. It happens to so many of us.

However, like life, the only thing consistent is CHANGE. So we must move on.

You are so much stronger now for the previous therapist. You have skills and knowledge you did not have before. Use it. Don't let yourself down and throw away all that hard work!

We are here to listen and help you mourn the change. It will pass, the sadness. Use your knowledge to fight the emotions, remember they can not hurt you, they are just feelings.

Peace and courage
Trina

Allow yourself rest and relaxation while you are staying in bed. But don't stay in bed more than a day or so. Get out and walk even if it is just five minutes. We do have to allow ourselves to feel, or be sad, but we can't let ourselves fall into that rut. Do try walking a little.

Hugs, Karen...

Thanks. I finally got up. Washer and dryer on the blink. Called for service. The man said he would come in 30 minutes so I was forces to get dressed. Well the laundry room light gave out while he was here. Put a lamp in there for him. He is coming back Saturday so I had to go get bulbs for light. Then I started cleaning vote laundry room. Cleaned all the stuck on fabric softener and dust . Organized the shelves. I do think know where that all came from.
I bought 4 plants that were on clearance. I'm going to try to bring them back to their beauty. They have some brown leaves. Hopefully this can occupy my mind. ( Trying to use my coping skills)

Took a klonopin. I hope it makes me sleepy. It used to when I took it with Remeron. Remeron worked but made me GAIN weight. That caused me grief. I am now taking Wellbutrin, it seems to be doing OK until now. Maybe I need to up it again. I will see how adding the Klonopin again does.

I was diagnosed with anxiety, major depressive disorder, post traumatic stress disorder. Do these things ever go away or should I expect them to show up at any time?

I'm also on Wellbutrin and now take 175 mg morning then again at night (1 x100 and 1 x 75)

I used to be on 200 a day which worked well for 3 years then after a concussion and getting very ill again it was upped to the 175, 2 x day.

I also have major depressive disorder and PTSD and I know myself anxiety too, mine will also never go away and have to manage it, last week I could feel myself going down for a few days, stayed home for 2 days then made myself get out the next and now I'm okay again.

I hope you have luck with your plants, I love them, bought some flowers and made my own hanging baskets, they almost got killed with all the massive rain but are now coming back :)

Let us know you are okay, how are you today? hugs....

Glad things are better. I have accepted (kicking and screaming at first) that my depression and anxiety will be around for the rest of my life. After two years I finally have a good mix of medications but I know that could change.

Don't let the changes trip you up. Do what you need for yourself without judgement!

I hope you continued improvements.

Thanks for those thoughts. I am feeling stronger. I am taking the med's consistently. I feel great right now. I haven't had that lump in my throat, no erratic breathing, no crying,I think I am sleeping all night(if I'm waking up I don't remember it) I am so grateful for this reprieve.
Going to call psych dr today. I see my wellbutrin getting low, that will cause me to get anxious. I am also going to see if a new therapist came in place of the other one.

Wishing everyone a good day.

Not sure why some of my posts don't submit sometimes. Oh well. Can't write it all again.

Just sad, sad, sad all of a sudden.

I just want it to go away.