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Posted Today 4:53 AM (GMT 0)
hello- i'm new on here tonight. i read a bunch of posts, and i gotta tell ya, i find that even among people who feel alone and depressed, i really am alone and depressed. i've never been married (never found someone i thought i could spend the rest of my life with), i'm past childbearing years, and a family member just betrayed me HUGE. it's a VERY LOOOONG story, so i won't bore you (just wrote a long post and deleted it), but i'm not exaggerating when i say that now i have NO ONE. i even made up a fake name for my emergency contact for a new job i'm starting soon (was laid off a year ago, which only made my situation worse). anywho, i was reading other posts on here, and i thought, "wow, do i have to apologize for being negative on a depression forum?" i just spend my 3rd thanksgiving in a row totally alone, and Christmas alone will also be my 3rd in a row. i trust ABSOLUTELY NO ONE, which is why i'm not talking to anyone about this and posting it online to strangers so no one will know me. i go to bed every night and beg God to take me and my puppy dogs home so i won't have to wake up in the morning. if i weren't a Christian and didn't have pups... i have zero hope left. skull

Post Edited By Moderator (getting by) : 12/1/2014 4:49:47 AM (GMT-7)

Posted Today 6:02 AM (GMT 0)
Oh friend-

I am sorry to hear about your struggles. I have a different story yet have felt where you're at. It's a very lonely & dark place. You are not alone or the most pathetic depressed person ever. Not by a long shot lol! That's the stupid depression talking.

You are welcomed to post anything here (following forum rules of course lol), so never ever feel like you're burdoning anyone here bc you aren't! Most of us have bared our darkest days here, past hurts & traumas, you name it.

What're you doing if anything, to treat your depression? Is this your first bout with it? Do you have a doctor &/or a therapist? No matter how hopeless it feels, depression IS treatable!

Many of us here take various medications &/or see a therapist.

Please know you're NOT alone. We carry eacother around here when one of us can't walk. We'll carry you too! We are a family here whether you're brand new or have been here years.

Keep posting. And praying! And I'll pray for you too right now!

Cozy up with your puppies & know that there IS light at the end of this dark tunnel you're cruising down!

Sending you peace-
Lisa
Posted Today 8:05 AM (GMT 0)
Same here and have a cuddly cute pup to care for and a nasty husband who never cares for me.

could care less and do that with you but then life is meant to enjoy and we should not even talk like this as its a SIN.

You and me and our pups are living ,feeling beings and Thinking like this sounds wrong and ridiculous .

Try to see beauty in nature and distract yourself .

I am managing through meds,journeling,spending time here and distracting myself.

post here anytime to get wonderful support !!!!
Posted Today 11:56 AM (GMT 0)
Hi Donewithit,

I am so sorry you are feeling the way that you are. But you do have your pups, they make life so much better. I had a dog too. I love her so much... She can be a pain, but that keeps me going...

Being alone isn't always bad, you are with someone who loves you, yourself. Have kindness towards yourself and treat yourself gently at this time, you are worthy of that... Know we are here for you too.

Please check out the resource thread at the top of the page. There are emergency sites and numbers if you need. There is a list of good self help books too that really do help. There are sites to visit to help you too. Please do ask for help if you need it.

I had to remove a couple of words out of your post. We can't discuss anything that leads to self harm here. But that doesn't mean we don't understand it... And that we aren't here for you because we are...

With the holidays approaching, it makes life so difficult especially if we are alone. Have you thought about helping somewhere to volunteer some of your time? Helping others is a good way to help ourselves to feel better. There is a lot of gratification to be had in doing this. Maybe a homeless shelter or a soup kitchen??? I hope you consider it..

Hang in there sweetie. You are in no way pathetic. You are a worthy human being looking for some compassion in life, we are here to help you with that...

Keep posting, as it helps a lot...

Hugs, Karen...
Posted Today 3:44 PM (GMT 0)
DWI,

I can feel your angst. Welcome to our forum. YOU ARE NOT ALONE.

Four years ago, I was shunned by ALL of my blood family [14 ppl] because I disclosed abuse by 4 members of my immediate family.

Very hard at first, however, today I am happier for not having the toxic relationships in my life.

I go to therapy and see a pyshciatrist.

Two years ago I found a Depression Support group. Hard to go to at first, took 6 most to get a steady rythmn of attending going for myself. I have made 3 aquaintances there. We do things outside of the group once and awhile. Relationships grow slow, I too have trust issues, but am learning.

There is one thing someone very kind told me once; as a moderator I have to adjust it a bit do to discussion of religion, I think you will get it though.

"A person must get out among others to allow Him to work in our lives" Where there is two or more gathered, there I am.

Start slow with walks, going in and out of shops, perhaps in a mall, say excuse me to people, or thank you, just smile. See what happens.

Keep posting here, we are here to listen and support the best we can.
Peace
Trina
Posted Today 8:50 PM (GMT 0)
Thank you for sharing and reaching out. You are not alone, as a Christian you know the one that sticks closer than a brother (Prov. 18:24). God will never leave your side, you have friends here that can relate and care enough to walk with you in the darkest times. It's great that you have puppies, they give so much unconditional love. Have you considered any therapy? I can suggest some great Christian counselors that you can talk to over the phone, initially for free. Please, let me know if your interested. You can make it! HUGS!

~Ducktapetherapy77
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