Rock bottom

Sorry Sean I didn't realize it's only been a couple weeks on the synthroid. I hope you'll keep us up to date on how you feel. Your TSH means your they road is not working properly and the body keeps trying to get it to work better. Borderline TSH is 3-5, normal below 3. They never used to treat the borderline but in recent years they have decided treating the borderline numbers, which I am in the middle of, in patients that are having issues with depression is a good idea. It certainly explains why I have this major anxiety and have had unstable depression for the past 1.5 years.

The anti thyroid peroxidase means you have antibodies that are attacking your thyroid. I had to look this one up but based on what I read it indicate and auto immune disorder hashimotto's thyroiditis. This is an auto immune disease named after the Dr. Who first identified it. Interestingly my twins also have this and one is bipolar 2 and the other is OCD. They are fraternal twins 31 years old. I'm still waiting on the thyroid panel results tht will tell me what I have.

You know the more I think about it the more I am sure this under active thyroid is having a huge impact on how I feel.

I'm glad you are back at work. I will likely go back next week. My sleeping was improved last night with the addition of trazadone, and no morning side effects! I am feeling better after a good sleep.

12 codeine pills? Ouch. What's the typical dose?? I don't know anything about codeine except 12 sounds like an overdose & codeine is a prescription here in the states.

Do you have chronic pain? What're you precribed codeine for? It will absolutely make the DP worse.

How about take Asprin, Tylenol or Advil (idk what brands you have in the UK), for pains such as toothaches, headaches etc. Those cannot affect your moods/mind & are non addictive.

You're still being prayed for. Take care of yourself. I am confident getting your thyroid normalized is going to make a huge difference.

Hugs,
Lisa

Typical dose in 24 hours is 8 but I was taking 3 at a time as the toothache was so bad. I had one good day on Friday last week but ever since then I have been feeling bad and I don't know if it's because they put my thyroid meds up by 25 mg. I just feel so out of it and disconnected in my mind. I don't think I can deal with this for much longer, I thought when I found out about the thyroid being under active, that I would just take some tablets and be okay but I feel worse than ever and I don't know why anymore.

I am so close to giving up as I just cant take this feeling anymore.

Don't forget Sean, it takes a month for the thyroid medication to get things back to normal. Your body is probably trying and that could be why you are feeling bad. Give it time, try to chill in the meantime. How long has it been since you started the thyroid medication? Hang in there buddy... Know we are here for you. I know it is hard to be patient when it has taken so long, but there is a light at the end of the tunnel...

Hope that you feel better soon my friend...

Hugs, Karen...

Hi everyone,

Really hope you have all been okay and sorry for long time without posting. My consultant said to stay away from the net and forums for a bit to try take my mind off things but I don't think he realises you guys are helping me.

I have been taking 75 mg of thyroid meds for about two weeks now and there has definitly been an improvement with the DP and the anxiety although I am having a few bad days now but maybe it is because the tablets need to find their right levels and also I may need to up the dose but I wont know until I have a blood test in January for that.

How is everyone? I hope all of you are having lots of good days and not such a stressful time leading to Xmas.

Love to you all

Sean

Hey Lisa,

It is great to hear from you too. I am so sorry you have had the dp and deperession back this week.....perhaps it is the stress of Christmas as dp is closely linked to anxiety?

Weirdly enough just after I wrote my last post, I took some vitamin D lol I used to take it but then I felt I was taking too many tablets a day so I stopped the vitamins duh lol

The consultant has got me down to 15 mg of the mirtrizapine and he wants me to take no more than 1 mg of clonzepan a day too so I am doing things slowly. I am due to go back to work in Jan and he said that will help with the dp.

I hope your suffering ends soon :) x

Hey Jmarg,

I was feeling better but the last few days have been horrible again, I don't know why :(

I am not due for a blood test until end of month to see what the thyroid levels are like then but I am scared that they will come back normal and I will still have these horrible symptoms. I really hope I just need an increase or something.

I am so glad you are feeling better :)

Hey Sean,

Hang in there man... It does take time. I hope you are feeling somewhat better. We are all thinking of you...

Hugs, Karen...

You would have to try it so see. Maybe practice deep breathing and mindfulness to make up for it. That helps with anxiety. Also self talk. Positive affirmations...

Hang in there Sean, remember it takes time for the thyroid medication to start working. Though I can imagine you are sick of being spaced out...

Have a good day today...

Hugs, Karen...

Does it matter how long you have been taking it for guys? I have only been taking it for about 5 months on average about 2mg a day but most of the time less than that. Today I just wanted to sleep to take away the confusion so I took two sleeping pills(not at once)and now I am at a gig and feel so out of it. I just am exausted of it all now. I dont think I can keep getting my hopes up and when I am feeling good and the feel bad again :(

Keaz I know how you feel I really do, I would do anything to be the person I once was but right now I feel so far away from it. I have an appointment with my consultant tomorrow morning so I will see what he says. Maybe the thyroid meds have not kicked in yet either I really don't know anymore.

Kudos to you Keaz, You cannot give up. Take it one day at a time for now though... I hope things get better for you... Good luck with the klonopin weaning... Go slow...

Sean, I hope you get through the gig tonight. I imagine it is over now. I hope that it went well for you.

Keep hanging in there guys, all we can do is go one day at a time. Hopefully feeling a little bit better each day.

Hugs, Karen....

Sean, There is no reason to lose hope... You need to give the meds time to work, it doesn't happen quickly, you will probably have subtle changes. You are going to make it though the year. Be patient.

I am going to lock this thread, you are at 99 posts. You can start a new one when you are ready.

You are doing good in spite of what you are going through. Please don't give up hope...

Hugs, Karen....