very depressed newbie

Hi there,

I am Krissie or sadpixie, and I am 22, I have suffered with depression for about 10 years, I am currently on Zispin, they seem to suit me but I just think the dose might need upping abit, I am going to see my GP either tomorrow or Monday, as soon as I can get in to see him. I am also attending Counselling, and have been trying to contact my Cousellor for a few days now and she has not got back to me I feel really depressed and desperate, I a struggling to cope from day to day. I don't want to bore you by going into great detail of my past, but have been though quite a lot and feel like I want to give up and die. I am in a relationship with a very loving and supportive man, we have been together for over 3 years but my illness is destroying the relationship, as he is a carefree and relaxed guy, and has never had to deal with depression before and he is finding it a struggle too, we love each other to bits and I don't want this to end, as he is everything to me. I am crying a lot, feeling like I am going to explode any minute, finding it really hard to control my emotions. I hit a wall last week in temper and broke my knuckle, I am very low and just need someone to talk to me and let me know that I am not the only one in this dark world of depression

thanks in advance

sadpixie xx         

Hi Dbab,

thanks for your reply. it's nice to know someone is out there listening *hugs* it makes me feel a little better knowing that alone. Yep me and Mark have been together for over 3 years and my depression has always put strain on the relationship, he has been brilliant, considering he had his own worries, being made redundant and getting a divorce and moving out, I tried to support him the best I could and he does the same for me, but at the mo he is worn out with it all, and feels he can;t help me and support me anymore although he really wants to. He has been to my Counselling sessions in the past, I feel 100% comfortable talking about anything while he's there. I think I rely on him a bit too much to help me, as he isn't trained to deal with this sort of thing and I do put it on him a lot and I feel bad about that. I just feel desperate and clingly. I hate it!!!!! I am going to see my GP hopefully tomorrow and I will mention to him that I don't think Linda is being very helpful, she is really nice tho, but she does seem to have me out of the room within 15-20 mins, my last Counsellor left for some unknown reason I only saw him 6 times and he was great, but he went and I waited 9 months on the NHS to get to see Linda, but the GP I have is the head of all the doctors so he has the most clout so to speak.

I am glad I have stumbled across this place as it seems really friendly and nice, hope to make lots of new friends here

hugs
Pix xx

Hi Krissie,
This is my first day and my first reply! I came here looking for support and people who understand what I'm going through. It sounds as if you are doing the same thing. I think we all need people who can empathize. So, welcome to both of us. You have lots of shoulders to cry on. Hugs and take care.

Sadsunshine

Hi there sadpixie!

I am new here also and as of yesterday reached my breaking point, which is how I wound up here. I have been suffering from depression for a few years no and am on 30mg of paxil but I don't find it does anything. My doctor upped it from 15 to 30 about a month ago but I still haven't noticed a difference.

My ex ended our relationship of 10 years about a month ago and since then it has gotten MUCH worse. Basically she just couldn't deal with me anymore. It hurts REALLY bad because she was my best friend and now I feel like I have no one to talk to. We are still friends but I don't feel as though I can talk to her the way I used to as we are not together.

Over the last 10 years we had been through pretty much everything together. The birth of our nephew and godson, her sister getting ill and passing away from cancer, my cousin killed in a car accident, my brother in laws cocaine and alcohol addiction and so much more which makes it hard for me to understand why she is unable to support me when I am down.

For the last week, I thought I had a plan. I was going to buy another house and get out of my parents basement, but to make a long story short, I was lied to and that fell through yesterday. At this point I just don't know what to do next and am not sure I can handle any disappointment. I just don't know what to do.