Thank you for the words of encouragement, when I saw my new therapist on Friday, she did say that is a very good thing about
me, that I do reach out before it is too late.
When I found this therapist, I never knew she specializes in Trauma therapy, which is really what I need the most, she has talked to my Psychiatrist before I guess about
other patients, so she does have a rapport with him which could be helpful.
Friday was basically just an intake, but she did realize I suffer greatly from PTSD, and she explained that when a person goes through a traumatic event they can be stuck in that moment in time and not move forward, she kind of used the analogy of a child having a cognitive delay, they are stuck at a certain age. So because she deals with Trauma cognitive therapy, I believe she will be so helpful for me. I felt very hopeful when I left her, although at about
12:00 AM the next morning it seemed like my mind was like a recording, and I started reliving traumatic events that have happened in my life that I never worked through, I seem to be the type that tries to repress memories thinking this will help me, but in the long run because I didn't deal with the issues it has hurt me greatly.
To be truthful If I could list in here the traumatic events I have been through, not only would I probably be banned
, but it would give people an insight on how strong of a person I must really be to still be going on.
Thank you again for listening to me, sometimes it just helps to be able to
open up to people, especially when I am the queen of suppression, I have learned this to cope but in the scope of things it has caused me great pain.