Just Dealing....

Hi Dee,

Welcome to the forum. I am glad you found us.

I hope you don't feel like you failed just because you may need meds again. You might be able to find a similar without the side effects. Sometimes the second time around is a little different too. So you never know.

I have been down the last couple of days. I think it is due to one of my medications going generic. It isn't helping me as much as it did before. I see my psychologist to talk about it on Tuesday. So that helps.

I isolate myself when I get depressed too. I am finding more and more I just don't want to be around people. I wish I wasn't like that. I am trying to ride it out though and see where it takes me. My husband dug out a canvas of mine today so I am going to try to paint. Maybe that will help. Maybe you could find something you like to do for a distraction too. We both need to feel better.

I hope that your day gets better as it goes on. Do something nice for yourself. I am going to take a short nap and then a shower.

Best wishes...

Hugs, Karen...

Welcome Dee

Do you use any coping skills on a daily basis to help keep your positives strong?

I use mindfulness, meditation, art, walking music...journaling

If you don't feel better in a few days, perhaps a call to doc would be appropriate.

Peace
Trina

Hi, Dee. My name's Fer.
I'm new as well. I too am struggling with depression.
I've never taken meds or went with a psychologist. I've just been dealing with it on my own and with the support of my family.
You shouldn't feel bad about falling back into depression. I think you are very brave, most people don't realise how much strenght it takes to look for help instead of just letting it wash over you.
I've had depression ever since I can remember. I used to be depressed all the time when I was little and in fact most of my childhood went away in a confusing fog of random memories. I thought it was just the the way life was, until it got really bad, when I was around 11. I started to hurt myself and kind of lost all of myself in a sea of random bad thoughts and self loathing. I told some family members. Didn't do much for me. We happen to move and I had to live for a while with my siblings at my parent's office (it was actually a house, with the office on the first floor) and the change really helped. It helped getting me momentaneously out of the fog I'd created in my life long enought to realise I was depressed and needed to fight back. My cure kind of was indentifying the symptoms before it got bad and talking about it with my family. Watching inspirational movies always helps me. And just setting small goals on the really bad days. Excercising always does it for me as well. Listening to music all the time cheers me up.
Go easy on yourself. Talk it out with someone you trust. It won't go away, but it helps not to carry the burden alone. And be a little selfish, too. Do what you want when you want it. It will distract you a little from the sadness and when you realise it, you might feel a little better.
Best wishes...