Posted 8/14/2015 12:02 PM (GMT 0)
Girlfriend is on her way down, time to put on my 'happy face'. At least she acknowledges that I try my best to keep things as 'normal' as possible. Part of me loves her visits, part of me wishes she would stay home until I get the house back together. She also doesn't think my children do enough and it gets very stressful. My daughter and grandson live with me and when she is here, she doesn't 'pretend'. It makes them very uncomfortable. At least my daughter has an MRI scheduled and will be out for a while and then this evening I hope to 'treat' them to a movie, get them out of the house, away from the tension, and hopefully give them something enjoyable to do.
I also have to deal with my 'resentful' feelings about being 'interupted'. Not that I have a 'schedule' to keep but summer can be 'problematic'. She is a teacher, so during the school year she only has weekends to come down. Since it is summer now, she comes on Friday. I don't know why this bothers me, I should be glad for the extra time, but I feel annoyed instead. It really throws me off.
Anyway, thanks for letting me get this out a bit. Maybe it will help me deal a little better, knowing I've expressed it 'outloud' and didn't keep it all to myself to grow into some big, ridiculous monster.