I stepped down again to 22.5mg last night and up to 20mg of nortriptyline, I actually slept better than I have in a while which was good, and was feeling a bit satisfied when I woke up, but this morning my mood has just been getting very low and even have thoughts of wanting to just end it. Been feeling quite sick and in pain, and a bit spaced out but that's probably the new nortriptyline. I feel like my mood is getting worse but I don't know. It is so up and down at the moment I can't really tell. Yesterday afternoon and evening i was ok moodwise but i had taken a painkiller so that might have contributed. Its so strange but when i take one of these mild painkillers i feel more normal and jst wish i could feel like that all the time. I keep a mood diary and since I've been reducing the medication its been up and down, but I don't know today feels a bit different. I think I have been crying more since reducing the dosage especially in the first few days.
I'm beginning to question whether I'm doing the right thing, coming off the Mirtazapine. I don't really feel like its helped but I'm having all these effects coming off it that maybe it was and life's struggles have just been keeping me down. No AD is going to make you immune to feeling down when you physically feel like crap and you break up with your GF is it. At the same time I don't feel normal in myself, I feel unable to cope with things that I normally would handle better I think.
Is it normal to have these dips in mood or crying spells when coming off an antidepressant that hasn't really been working for you? Just trying to stay relaxed for now and hope it passes. I did notice for a few days after I reduced from 45mg to 30mg that I was very weepy but it seemed to subside. Am I safe assuming these are just short term withdrawal effects?
I mean I'm still on a dose for depression so if I don't feel normal on this dose surely it means it isn't the right one for me?
Post Edited (Andy1986) : 10/14/2015 5:14:11 AM (GMT-6)