Just joined :)

Hi SeaHorsey,

Welcome to the depression forum. Keep posting, it helps to share... Even if you don't know what to say.

Know you are not alone here.

Hugs, Karen...

Welcome SeaHorsey! One of the best things about this forum is it is uplifting! We encourage each other and discussion of different topics. More of what lifts us up than brings us down, we have enough of that as it is! Welcome aboard! Hope to see more from you.

Thank you everybody, for the warm welcome.

I do not have any support. I spend too much time being a mother and a wife or working/studying. I shut a very horrible past out which recently came back and has affected me badly. I can't talk about it. It doesn't affect me with the children, they are the reason why I still smile. But triggers set it off. I can never handle the trauma, I don't understand how people can be open with their feelings about traumas. I'm so closed off.

Anyway, best get dinner on :)

Love,

SeaHorsey X

I think that everybody is different with their depression to an extent. Some people can openly talk about things and others can't. I find it harder to share things about myself, where other people here on the forum are able to. But getting it out is what is important be it talking to somebody or writing about it. Some people do art therapy. There are so many ways to release feelings and what not.

I hope you find it comfortable enough here to share if the need be. Know we all care about you and probably all know how you feel.

Hugs, Karen...

Hi everyone,

I knit and sew loads. Its the only thing to de-stress after the children have gone to bed, which is nice.

Well, I got bullied loads at school. It was mostly verbal and psychological abuse but there were lads who did some awful things.

One of the reasons why it came up is because I had to do some homework on a childcare course I'm doing and it was to do with upbringing and how it could affect professionalism. I had to do a whole page on what happened and how it could affect me in a professional childcare setting. I just broke down and my tutor is worried because there are parts to the course that will bring back a lot of trauma.

Its stressed me out and I'm really depressed because it always affects me and my husband (were best friends so we get through tough times) when the trigger occurs with what the lads did to me.

I can usually block everything out but my childcare course is bringing out a lot of things I do not wish to remember.

I'm just not sure where I stand. I'm passionate about becoming a pre school/ nursery teacher.

Love,

SeaHorsey X