Its Finally Official

I was messing with the interface to see how it worked as I had been off for a real minute. I know now that I should post once every week(eventually every day). More to the point, I can saw that finally it was the best week ever. I am positively glowing with energy I feel so great #Sarcasm. All jokes aside I actually had one of the worst weeks I recall. The week was worse than even usual .

Mystery Monday:I set my sights on going to homecoming with somebody; anybody at this point. I talk with people and see where to go and think "I might be able to pull this off"
Takeoff Tuesday: I start getting things in motion, I talk with my options, Prayed For A Great Week and figure I will be doing something on Saturday
Where to go? Wednesday:It was an early dismissal day so I made short time and get it figured I'm down to two options so I wanted to go with the first option but I ended up losing the 30$ I had received for my lunch for the rest of the week and for the 20$ ticket to go to the dance itself. I texted and later found that she may not be going either anyway. The amount of upset ness I felt set a new 2015 year high for me.don't quote me on upsetness
Thought Worthy Thursday: Finally work the nerve to ask the other option, not to the dance but just to join for Halloween on sat. and I said I wanted to know her more while greatly struggling to get my words out. Am told that "Well I'm talking to somebody right now" Like it actually meant something. Went home rather frustrated I'll admit.
Finally Official Friday: I try again to talk but she ended mad me cause I got her in a somewhat lie. She kinda lied to me in a way and I talked about it when she didn't want to. I zoomed past today with nothing happening and a less then successful week to finally realize that I am cursed most likely.

Bear in mind that I neglected school work just to have this fall through to fruition but it didn't. I had been planning since October had started. No ticket, no plans, and no happiness?? I prayed on Tuesday for a great week only to be disappointed. Needless to say I am sad to the point I wouldn't even go out to get candy(seriously who in their right mind would pass up on something free?) This is just like last year when I was feeling bad and didn't trick and treat.Is this feeling of sadness deserved or am I being melo and sullen. I'd like to hear or see rather different point of views then mine.

PS: I left out how I had to view my other friends(all of them might I add) success. I was treated badly this week too.

It bites when things do not work out.

However, he who sits on his options loses. Consider this lesson learned to set things up early and not wait until the last minute! You cannot expect the entire prospective flock to sit still and just wait for your choice. They are people too, with just as much to lose emotionally as you do. Make a choice, go with it. If that doesn't work, make another one.

When you waffle, everything gets harder.

Being in school is rough.
Not being part of the 'cool kids' is tough, however you are in the majority NOT the minority.

Try joining a book club, study group etc.... I found out late in life that a few friends counted on one hand with change left over; is worth far more that a dozens of know people that would not be there for you in a crunch.

If people treat you badly, they will treat there associated badly in the end. It is their character, not the people you want to be with.

Peace and strength
Trina

Perhaps I wasn't clear. Ask someone early rather than wait. The longer you wait, the greater the likelihood others will have already made plans.

There will be other weekends and lots of opportunities for fun. You did a good thing in being proactive and trying to better your situation, if you keep it up then things will get better. Hard work and persistence pays off in the end but sometimes it can seem fruitless. Hang in there.

You're still young, your whole life is ahead of you and you will wind up in 10 years in a place you would never even have thought possible and been through things you never imagined. That's what I've found.

have fun whilst your young..........but be mindful of things around you. opportunities come in various ways and by various means.

I am late on the week basis update, not that it matters much as these past 2 weeks are the same whereas they are both utterly disappointing. I won't go in to too much specifics but I will say my strides have been stopped short. I lost any kind of momentum I had with myself and am starting to just accept failure once again. I've never not had to deal with it so I had figured what's the point. Maybe acceptance can give me a good change in pace.