No motivation.

So I have off this week and have so much to do but don't want to do it... I'd rather lay in bed until it's all over. I know it's a hard time of year for a lot of people but how do you still pull it off? No one knows how bad I'm hurting right now. I keep on my happy face the best I can because I don't want to spread my negativity. I just don't know-how to get through this and pull off Christmas like I'm not feeling super low. Fake smiles only holdup for so long...

I think Pitmom gave you some real good suggestions.

It is so difficult though the holidays if you aren't feeling good. I keep things as simple as possible. It will probably just be my husband and I this year so we are going to cook together.

We didn't have much money this year so that was depressing. But we are managing. I sent cards, which I love to do. Received a few.

I hope that things get better. I know it is hard, but take it one day at a time.

Hugs, Karen...

We all have issues doubled during holidays.

Yesterday, I froze and could not leave the house, had to get another facilitator for the support group etc. Barely could leave the bedrooms to take care of the dogs.

Kept saying to myself you are alright, you are safe, this is ok. etc....

When hubby got home, still I stayed in the bedroom.

Today, I ran an errand and dropped off the lap blankets at the nursing home. Did not stay to talk to anyone.

This is our work. Our Cross. Our destiny, whatever you want to call it. It is what we have to deal with. I for one refuse to let it win in the long run.. I may loose a battle here and there; the final victory however will be mine.

Grab your sword for truth and your shield of right battle on, no one can take your dignity unless you give it away.

Peace and strength
Trina

When I was a little girl, the anxiety over whether or not I had been 'good enough' was horrible. I would pass out at the family dinner table. The warmth of the room (we had an eat in kitchen) and the bodies, the perfumes, the noise, was so overwhelming.

I started a new tradition with my children. Whatever the 'big' gift was, the one they 'really, really' wanted, I let them open on Christmas Eve. We would visit family, then go home for the gifts. Christmas morning was quiet. I really think this helped my children not have the anxiety I had.

Figuring out what got it all started was huge for me. Patterns are started in childhood.

"Gifts" stopped being such a big deal the year someone broke into the place my mother worked and had been 'hiding' our presents. What a turn around that turned out to be! We children learned the "true" meaning of Christmas then. We went to church and prayed for the 'thief'. You can steal gifts, but you can't 'steal Christmas'. I was grateful we had always watched "The Grinch".

Controlled breathing JR slow and easy....

Pitmom basically most holidays always sucked for me, want go into details, however Mom or Dad liked to share on the Holidays with their siblings.

The best time and still for me at Christmas is laying in Bed with the radio on and listening to the last of the christmas music, imagining a whole nother life. I was blessed with a stray dog around the age of 8 and she always slept at the foot of my bed.

If we use self-compassion, relax and let our minds float, we can find a few good moments to think on.

I wish you all a Peacefull Gentle Christmas.

Trina