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Posted 11/12/2015 9:43 PM (GMT 0)
The struggle has been super real for me lately. Yesterday, after my dr appt, I fixated on the words depression, anxiety and insomnia listed as my diagnosis. It just made it so real... even when I already knew those things. I am frequently thinking about how much easier it would be to NOT deal with this. I'm not saying I'm suicidal, but the thought of going to sleep and not waking up sounds wonderful to me. I am on an AD that they increased the dose of yesterday... I've been to therapy twice now... I am trying. I know people here have been in the same spot. How do you get through this part of it? Everything feels so hopeless right now.
Posted 11/12/2015 11:15 PM (GMT 0)
One tool I use for days like you describe is to get my kitchen timer, you know, one that 'ticks'. I set it for 15 minutes, lay on the couch and just breath. Feel whatever it is that I'm feeling. Realize that it is not killing me. When the bell goes off, I get off the couch and so 'something'. Wash the dishes. Take a walk. Clean the toilet. Make a phone call. Whatever. Then, if I need to, I reset the timer and get back on the couch for another 15 minutes. Bell sounds, get up, do something. Repeat as necessary.

This has gotten me through many dark, seemingly endless days. It also keeps my house from getting overwhelmingly dirty!
Posted 11/13/2015 12:09 AM (GMT 0)
Know with the med increase and the therapy, you are going to feel better. It just takes time. And the changes can be subtle.

Hang in there, things are going to get better.

Hugs, Karen...
Posted 11/13/2015 4:45 AM (GMT 0)
Been there. It does get better. So I can hold on to that knowledge to make it through subsequent moments. I had a few anxiety symptoms lately. I told myself no way. I didn't let it take over. You can do it too
Posted 11/13/2015 5:00 PM (GMT 0)
What you discribe is a suicide intention.

What you might need is distress tolerence skills

I use them myself, I know you feel and it can be hard to refocus and come out of the dark thoughts. I have copied some links for you. Practice this skills everyday. Even when you are feeling good, so they become 2nd nature when you really need them..

www.goodtherapy.org/blog/distress-tolerance-dialectical-behavior-therapy-0117134

dbtskillsgroups.com/GroupTherapy/distress-tolerance/

Remember, you are not alone, lots of folks feel what you feel. Connecting with them will give you strength.

Peace
Trina
Posted 11/13/2015 8:34 PM (GMT 0)
Thank you for the responses. pitmom - I really like that idea, I may have to try it out myself.

Appreciate you guys and this forum. Been a good safe haven for me. <3
Posted 11/15/2015 2:16 PM (GMT 0)
I am glad you one of the suggestions inspired you.

Please keep posting and let us know how you are doing.

In the Resource Thread at the top of the forum there are more links, books and contact numbers should you need them. Please take the time to review this helpful information.

Peace and strength
Trina
Posted 1/19/2016 2:11 PM (GMT 0)
I am so sorry that you are feeling this way. At least, have in mind that it cannot be worse at this point. This is only sickness talking through you and you should treat it as such. Do not let it get best of you!
Posted 1/19/2016 3:01 PM (GMT 0)
Depression anxiety and insomnia are hard to deal with all at once, weather we think we have it or we know we have it. I have dealt with them my whole life. You are taking the right steps to fix them and help get past them and while it takes time, it will and does get better. I get better every day. It is hard at times but we'll worth it.
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