Posted 5/24/2016 9:29 AM (GMT 0)
Hi all, I made it through the day yesterday, was in considerable pain and stressed but it seemed to come and go and just made it all the more clear to me that it's all psychological, it moves around my body. It's been 4 years of resisting that truth, hoping for a solution, but I've finally run out of hopes and quick fixes. Now I'm trying to accept the hard truth.
I tried ignoring the pain for a year, that didn't get rid of it though it did reduce in severity. The only thing left to try really is this theory about suppressed emotions, I tend to bottle everything up and for the last 4 years all I have thought about is pain. Maybe I need to think past it to how I'm really feeling and express that. It's hard as it makes the pain worse, but usually after a while it eases.
So I'm trying to not run from my emotions any more, and deep down I feel so alone and afraid. I write in a journal once a day and let it all out, then try and be all positive and not stress for the rest of the day.
Still not sure when I will see the psychiatrist but maybe they can help with some medicine, I don't want to get my hopes up though.