What's the point?

@bnot, yes one of my problems is reaching out, I rarely ask for help. The few times I went to a therapist was not productive. Trouble expressing my feelings. I will try again, thanks.

Thanks, I haven't made a big decision in a long time.

@chartreux, sorry about your mother, it must be hard. I just lost a cousin to that ailment. I have thought about train traveling, it's a possibility. I try not to give, but it's so hard at times, then I get down on myself. Thanks again.

@ tim. When I was a kid I use to get a b 12 shot every week. I have changed my diet a bit. Eating more cereal, less bread and butter. I also cut down on beer. Never a big drinker, just 3_ 4 a day, now maybe just one. It has helped drinking less. Thanks for caring. Hope you are well.

If you had b-12 shots as a child you might need to restart them, go to your primary doctor get bloodwork done, you might be low again, my doctor told me I'd need b-12 for life, I take a sublingual tablet from a store called sprouts, it helps.
Worried about you and hope your doing better soon. try getting an appointment for your primary and ask if someone you know could give you a ride.
Since you liked bowling do you have a bus service that could get you to a bowling alley? or can you ask a friend. Might be worth going and see if you can get placed on a league. It's something to consider and your probably very good.
A joke and hope you don't mind it:
Two gentlemen neighbor's were talking and the one asked the other "how did you find out your wife was cheating?
"Well, she came home from bowling and she said she had a 302 game"

@chartreux, hi, I've had blood work done, and a bunch of other tests. Results are good. Doctor wants me back to recheck some tests. Less pain since I cut down on beer drinking. Besides health problems, it's my mental state. I get depressed because I waste too much time, and knowing the future doesn't look good. I want to quit my job and travel but do nothing to make it possible. I lost all faith in myself. Thanks for caring. I liked the joke. Hope you are well.

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@ Karen, some of the things are: quit job, collect my profit sharing, get a car, get healthier, eyes, teeth, pay all bills. I'm sure there are more things. I get overwhelmed, normal for me. Thanks.